The Night is for Sleeping

When was the last time,
You have fallen peacefully asleep at night?

And not think about the things,
That haunt your restless mind?

When was the last moment where you went to bed to sleep,
Hugged your pillows so tight,

And not worry about the monsters inside your head,
Along with the problems that give you fright?

When was the last time you lie down,
And felt the surging relief after a tiring day,

And not dreadfully stare at the ceiling,
While you think about the things that are gone but should’ve stayed?

When was the last time you cuddled
Among warm blankets and your favorite stuffed bear,

And not wake in the middle of the night, screaming,
Because of an unwanted nightmare?

When was the last time you have slept
‘Till the early sunrise,

And not stayed up all night,
Thinking about your inevitable demise?

When was the last time you have happily put off
Everything that you are doing just so you can rest,

And not crying horribly because of the loaded school works,
And all the things you need to review for your test?

When was the last time you have closed your eyes,
Satisfied with how your day went,

And not painfully close it,
Asking what every crack in your heart meant?

When was the last time you have looked forward
In going home,

And not worry about how you’ll end up wide awake in your bed,
Feeling all alone?

Just tonight, please hold tight.
Stop thinking, stop worrying.

Just stop what you are doing.
Give it to God, and go to sleep, Darling. (more…)

When Love meets Math

No matter how close they can get with each other,
They will never ever be together.

Parallel Lines.
No matter how much they cling and long for it,
They can do nothing about love if their hearts will never even meet.

Tangent lines.
No matter how hard they try to be with each other,
Their paths are only destined to meet at one point and be apart forever.

The thing about Math and Love is, they are both inclined
With complicated and painful situations.
But one good thing about them is,
In every problem, there would still be solutions.

You are My Home (Eleventh Hour)

A freak, crazy, girl,
An alien in this world.
That’s what peopld often call me,
Whenever I proclaim You are my Lord.
They don’t understand what it feels like,
To be with You for the rest of my days,
All they know is to judge and give a strike,
In everything I do and in different ways.
A slap across the face,
Words that can kill a heart,
They have stepped on my whole being,
Just so they can tear us apart.
Thousands of restless days,
And sleepless nights,
Thousands of criticism,
And society bites.
Everything inside me is already torn,
My cracked hearts seem to be full of pain even from the day when I was born.
But comparing it to what You’ve done for me when You wore the crown of thorns,
All of this comes down to nothing, and I know that this pain is worth all the more.
No matter what they try to do,
No matter how much they try to
Take me away  from You,
I know that still, You’re always here with me,
And that You’ll never leave me on my own.
I know this world can do nothing,
For I am never alone.
And I’d always find my way back to my home.

Giving Praise to the One who deserves it All (Tenth Hour)

The winds blowing to the east,
And the winds blowing to the west,
From the rising of the Sun,
To where it sets,
I will give You praise.

The birds sing the songs You composed,
The waters flowed down the stream gently,
The trees swayed with the breeze lovingly,
Everything bloomed: the lilies, the daises, and many other plants rose.
As the nature praise You, I will too.

The night sky sings worship,
As million of stars twinkle by.
With the moon in its peak,
Throughout the night, these whole creation speaks.
And as everything starts to lift Your name, I will do the same.

Even when the sun shines,
Even when the sky cries,
Even when doubt starts to fill my mind,
Even when the world makes me lost in its bind,
Still You’re here with me, so I will praise You, God Almighty.

Go Straight Ahead, Don’t Look Back Now

Courage is all it takes to cross a bridge to go somewhere new.
And leave everything else behind from where you are.
Take it slowly.
One step at a time.
That will be the start of your journey,
Don’t worry, you’ll be fine.

Perseverance is all it takes to continue walking that bridge.
No matter what situation you’re in.
Whether in the midst of scorching hot sunny day or thunderstorms.
Take it boldly.
With each step, give your heart out.
Just continue and you’ll understand and see,
What your journey is all about.

Strength is all it takes to stop for a while and rest.
Don’t worry, it’s okay.
You’re just stopping for a while,
You won’t pause your whole life.
Because sometimes, in order for you to go another mile,
You need to go to your refuge to be able to strive.

Bravery is all it takes to burn bridges that you don’t need anymore.
You have to have the guts to leave things behind,
Especially if it will just give your heart and mind a heavy load.
Sometimes, it’s better to give up a few things,
That weighs too much on our packs.
And when we have finally decided what to set aside and what to bring,
Stand up, heads up, walk on. And no more looking back.

Come Along with Me

Come along with me,
Let us watch the stars,
Let’s watch and stare at it
‘Till it mend our broken scars.

Let us watch the stars ,
And drown in our constellation of thoughts
‘Till it mend our messed up scars,
And find the things we yearned to sought.

Drown in our constellation of thoughts,
Accept the fact that pain demands to be felt completely,
Take up your own cross and all the burden it brought,
And remember that this world is not a wish granting factory.

Pain demands to be felt, completely.
Take up your own cross and walk this journey faithfully,
And remember that this world is not a wish granting factory.
So, come along with me.

The Anatomy of an Anxious Heart

Pumping blood of worries,
On veins of negativity.

Made up of dark chambers,
And loneliness for arteries.

Beating with danger,
Thumping with fear,

Pounding hard for the unusual things,
Though they are not yet made clear.

Silently screaming,
Wanting to get out of this old trap.

Quietly shouting,
To get out of everything I’ve messed up.

It has always been like this from the start.
Tearing me up piece by piece, part by part.

Wanting me to get completely broken apart.
This is how it works— the anatomy of an anxious heart.


Here’s to our stars,
To our tragic love and
To our invisible scars
To our unseen galaxy and
To what we’ll never be.
To our way to the moon and
To what will happen soon.
Finally. Finally.
I have finally let go.

Let Me

You don’t know how it feels to have a heart beating so fast with just the simple sight of your back
Or even just a quick glance at your shoes.
You don’t know what it’s like to have your pulse throbbing when you walked by and make me stop at my tracks,
Believe me, you don’t have a single clue.
Like when the moment you walked in the door of our class,
You already captured a piece of my heart.
And the moment you walked out the same door and left,
You already have it all, completely, its every single part.
You don’t know how the sound of your name brings a familiar rhythm in my soul,
And how your mysterious stare could swallow me like it’s as if I’m falling in a black hole.
You don’t know how your laughter could bring me back to my senses,
You don’t know how your smile could bind up my shattered and broken pieces.
The genuine reality of your beauty, is something you cannot fully grasp.
Because you haven’t really seen yourself aside from looking at mirrors and photographs,
But believe me that if you do,
You’d understand why I fell for you.
You’d understand why I’m doing this,
Why I’m sacrificing things just so you would notice.
Notice how you’ve turn my world up side down,
And how you took me out from being drowned.
Drowned in the sea of hate I am so ready to plunge myself in.
But then everything changed when I saw you. And how your heart light up from within.
It’s so sad that it’s hard for you to love yourself.
That you cannot feel what I just felt.
But it’s okay, let me be the one to show that love to you.
Let me be the one to make you feel the love that is filled with truth.
Let me be the one to hold you when you feel sad,
Let me be the one to hug you when you feel mad,
Let me be the pin, for when you’re about to explode like a grenade,
Let me be the one who will stay with you when everything else fades.
Though, I understand if you wouldn’t want me.
It’s okay if you think that we’re not made for each other perfectly.
I know it’s hard to find the things you want that I lack,
And that it’s even harder to force the person to love you back.
But if you need me, whenever you need me, I’m here.
I’m just here, waiting for the day you’ll let me hold you dear.

Permanent Eclipse

You were the Sun,
And I am the Moon.
We can never be together,
Not today, not tomorrow, not even soon.

It’s so sad to think that
There are really things that aren’t meant to be.
And what’s even worse is knowing that,
A part of it is you and me.

Separated by time,
Separated by place,
Separated by the everything we see
In the sky and and even in space.

Though, there’s actually one way for us to be together,
It’s not that hard but waiting for it could almost take up ’till forever.
We don’t need the world nor the universe to turn around and get flipped,
What we only need is a complete, total, and permanent eclipse.