If you play with fire
eventually you’ll
get burned
isn’t this the way
it always is
I never thought anything
was supposed to get to me.
I thought I was
big
bad
tough
thick skinned
one day
43 minutes
Not so sure I
can make it
But you did this to me
made me feel
stupid
insecure
unworthy
ugly
You did this to me
hurt me
pushed me down
Made me feel
like I couldn’t do
anything right
two days
1 hour
20 minutes
how long since
I want to ask you
notice me
see what I’m doing
to make you happy
not me
I don’t matter
I am not perfect
and I’m not the ldeal
I can’t help it
I can’t be what you
want me to be
three days
8 hours
little by little
I’m doing it
Are you proud
I’m tired of trying to conform
to what
you want
you think
you wish
you hope
I would be
It’s not
going to happen
I have my own mind
but you still try to
push it
nitpick a little more
why don’t you
find something else
wrong with
my attitide
my language
my choices
me
four days
14 hours
56 minutes
since
Everytime I do it
I feel like a failure
like Im disgusting
like I’m unworthy
to even be seen
I can’t do it anymore
I can’t make bad choices
can’t spend my life trying
to please you
It only brings me down
what I know now
is you may only have
my best interests at heart
but you pick the wrong way
to go about it
Am I different
Do I look better
Are you pleased yet
Can I stop this ridiculous
charade
the clock’s ticking
time is going by
but you still
don’t see it
call me a drama queen
Five days
13 hours
the constant
craving’s still there
not as strong though
I can’t be what everyone else
wants me to be
It’s not right
It’s not going to happen
I know you want me to
have everything
that I could ever want
And I appreciate that
but it doesn’t change facts
You aren’t good for me
you claim to love me
but yet you hurt me this
way
six days
1 minute
I’ve reached it
my breaking point
I’m crawling along
on the floor
on my hands
my knees
Broken
You broke me
Satisfied?
Made me not
want it anymore
Take a second
just to breathe
Nope
Don’t want it anymore
Congratulations
damn you
I get over one addiction
Just to get fucked with
another one
Seven Days
I’m done
no more cravings
if they come up
I just ignore
them
Soon I won’t
be able to fight off
anything
not a cold
not an infection
not even diseases
Maybe you’re proud of me now.