Staying in her day job was not something she enjoyed:
it demanded speedy thinking, speedy translation to zeroes and ones, speedy response times
with hours upon hours that took her away from her family and herself.
Quitting her day job was not something she desired:
it demanded quiet resolve, quiet mediation among family members, quiet obedience
with lack of funds that drove away her family and even his love.
Either way, she was doomed to be alone.