It’s been a long time

A decade at least

We failed our friendship

Again

I think about you, wonder

But always cautiously

Never willing to reach out

Never able to forgive

Our path together was always divergent

Always caught up in egos and prejudices

I know I can never trust you

Never believe in you

 

I wonder if our paths will converge again

If I will be ignorant enough

To fall under your spell

What I crave can kill me

What I hate can keep me strong

 

Our karma too thick

Too murky

Too dangerous

I keep you far away

To keep my heart safe,

My life calm.

 

You my greatest foe

My soulmate of sorrow

My constant refrain of decay

Wasted, crumbling

Deterioration

So much we could have done

It’s a wonder we survived