Prompt #4 Numb
Dead from the inside I am numb. A complete shut down unresponsive to the external. Immovable, life wasting away. Tired eyes and hungry heart all dead in a row. No thirst to quench no dreams to conquer powerless in one way powerful in another - nothing affects me. Nothing to lose, no fear, no feelings, no attachment, no sorrow, Just the bottomless pit of nothingness -encroaching.
Overtaking... overcoming... infectious and familiar
It feels comfortable,
I am doomed anyway, Damned if I do, Damned if I don't. Hopelessness looms like a shadow. Wasted life, Wasted years, The Pointlessness of the point, at the edge of reason and lingering disappointment. Far from any harm, removed and isolated detached and unemotional, I let that shit go. Only to dive deep Head first into the chaos of living. The madness of emotions. The passage through life. I am waking up, Undoing these chains that have held me down for far too long. I am becoming human. I am living. I open the doors and let it surge. -Janice Raquela Mendonca Heightened Sensitivity Awakened
The flood gates burst forth
Let them in
Life so consumed Overwhelmed Crowded by so many things waiting to be felt, acknowledged. Waiting for some sort of response. Smack dab in harms way involved and participated. So many emotions which should I feel Indecisiveness takes over. I want to break free I want to let go but I can't escape. I want to become invincible, I want to become powerful. I am human, I am not perfect. -Janice Raquela Mendonca