Buckle up, bitches
And get ready to ride
You just might need stitches
You best say goodbye.

From what life has taught me
Through my ins and my outs
Jutting through the expanse to see
To witness what it’s all about

One minute I’m jovial
Burning brighter than a solar flare
My jokes are quite colloquial
Seriousness you can find elsewhere

But then my mood darkens
It’s weight heavy in my chest
It shrivels the life within my gardens
Yet save flowers if they’re pressed.

And then it shifts to where I’m stressed
Overthinking, cartwheeling to conclusions
The tides of woe leave me unimpressed
Negativity a soul’s murky pollution.

I hold my wisdom as my tongue
And murmur my knowledge in kind
Here I thought I knew too much young
Back then I was unimaginably blind

But then I remember how I love
The magnification of desire
Consumes all like a blaze thereof
Leaving my heart roasting on a pyre

And then find reason to smile again
Its the thought of you
Daydreams, how I can’t abstain
Hanging upon your every word till true

So I shake away uncertainty
That swallows my entire head
What I let go remains uncertain
Intentions oft misread.

And then back to fatalistic ideals
There’s nothing that can be changed
So accept that I am the raw deal
Back and forth, there I go- I’m really not that deranged.