I want to laugh,
unbridled, raw, pure, innocent,
the kind that comes in waves despite
your stomach knotting in stitches.
I want to choke on giggles that
make water spurt out of your nose,
that make talking impossible,
and send you rolling on the floor.
I want the laughter that starts with just one word,
or a look, a knowing glance,
that comes from oft repeated inside jokes,
privy only to those close to the heart.
I want laughter that is norm with the ongoing conversations
that is transparent, unchecked and free from judgement,
I long to laugh a real laugh,
It’s been so long, I wonder if I can anymore.