Showing you all I don’t want anyone to see
I am going to tell you about me
I am sensitive and sad
I cry I get mad
I smile to take you out
Because I am dying from inside out
I have a disease a discomfort everyday
I am saying things I never thought I would say
I tried to kill myself to ease up the pain
It did not work only added more shame
It took months to see why I never died
To see why all those nights I have cried
I needed love and acceptance I thought I need it from you
As time goes on I realised it you that put me through
Doubt shame hate and pushed them on me you won
I realised trying to love you just was no fun.
I walked away and the strangest things started to open up
I all of a sudden seen this half full amazing cup
I don’t need you to love me I need to love me
I don’t need you at all I just could not see.
I let you go I started to live again even if only until bipolar knocks me down
And kicks me around
But I now know I am loved and still don’t need you
I am thankful for all that you have put me through .