{"id":101149,"date":"2021-06-27T04:20:25","date_gmt":"2021-06-27T08:20:25","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/thepoetrymarathon.com\/blog\/?p=101149"},"modified":"2021-06-27T04:20:25","modified_gmt":"2021-06-27T08:20:25","slug":"self-portrait-hour-19","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/thepoetrymarathon.com\/blog\/2021\/06\/self-portrait-hour-19\/","title":{"rendered":"Self Portrait (Hour 19)"},"content":{"rendered":"
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Self Portrait (Reflecting)<\/strong><\/div>\n
By: LuvMiFreely<\/div>\n
(Poem 19)<\/div>\n
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34 years of self discovery<\/div>\n
Only to discover I\u2019m still learning about me<\/div>\n
I\u2019m no walk in the park<\/div>\n
I\u2019ve been through situations where most would have folded<\/div>\n
Pieces of my life that I wish I could omit<\/div>\n
But I have to admit<\/div>\n
I\u2019m a fighter<\/div>\n
A survivor<\/div>\n
Fatherless due to his drug addiction<\/div>\n
No father\/daughter dances<\/div>\n
No answers for any of my questions<\/div>\n
He died before I could ask them<\/div>\n
Half of me is missing<\/div>\n
And I\u2019m still trying to make sense of it<\/div>\n
Abused at an early age<\/div>\n
I would blame myself everyday<\/div>\n
For mistakes clearly not my fault<\/div>\n
But I embodied the pain<\/div>\n
Somehow telling myself I deserved it<\/div>\n
I hid behind my smile<\/div>\n
Sometimes I still do<\/div>\n
It\u2019s easier to say I\u2019m fine<\/div>\n
Than to explain my shattered life<\/div>\n
And expect people to actually understand it<\/div>\n
I\u2019m trying to undo the years of damage<\/div>\n
Healing from apologies not given<\/div>\n
Learning to tell myself when people walk away<\/div>\n
Not to blame myself and forgive them<\/div>\n
Learning that no one can love me quite like I can<\/div>\n
And that I deserve to be loved without suffering<\/div>\n
Reversing the negative energy placed on me<\/div>\n
So forgive me if you find me a bit complicating<\/div>\n
But in order to get to know me<\/div>\n
You have to understand at times I\u2019m jaded<\/div>\n
I have a good heart<\/div>\n
Just trying to get back my glow that was taken<\/div>\n<\/div>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

Self Portrait (Reflecting) By: LuvMiFreely (Poem 19) 34 years of self discovery Only to discover I\u2019m still learning about me I\u2019m no walk in the park I\u2019ve been through situations where most would have folded Pieces of my life that I wish I could omit…<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1307,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[7],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-101149","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-marathon-poem"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/thepoetrymarathon.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/101149","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/thepoetrymarathon.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/thepoetrymarathon.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/thepoetrymarathon.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1307"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/thepoetrymarathon.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=101149"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/thepoetrymarathon.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/101149\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":101157,"href":"https:\/\/thepoetrymarathon.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/101149\/revisions\/101157"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/thepoetrymarathon.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=101149"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/thepoetrymarathon.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=101149"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/thepoetrymarathon.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=101149"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}