{"id":102232,"date":"2021-06-27T07:07:20","date_gmt":"2021-06-27T11:07:20","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/thepoetrymarathon.com\/blog\/?p=102232"},"modified":"2021-06-27T07:07:20","modified_gmt":"2021-06-27T11:07:20","slug":"if-i-had-held-on","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/thepoetrymarathon.com\/blog\/2021\/06\/if-i-had-held-on\/","title":{"rendered":"If I Had Held On"},"content":{"rendered":"<p>If I had gone with you\u2026<br \/>\nI think our lives would be very different now<br \/>\nSans stretch marks, C-section scars, and broken bones<br \/>\nBut I wanted to make sure you knew<br \/>\nWhat you wanted<\/p>\n<p>Maybe that was stupid<br \/>\nMaybe I was scared<br \/>\nMaybe you seemed<br \/>\nJust too uncertain<br \/>\nAnd I didn\u2019t want uncertain<\/p>\n<p>I\u2019m sorry I didn\u2019t try to<br \/>\nDo something more than just say<br \/>\n\u201cMaybe you should know what you want<br \/>\nbefore we go any further in this.\u201d<br \/>\nI thought I was right<\/p>\n<p>And then I made a mistake<br \/>\nThe possibility of you even being my friend<br \/>\nSuddenly was slipping away<br \/>\nAnd I was sobbing on the phone<br \/>\nKnowing I hurt you<\/p>\n<p>Maybe I did it because<br \/>\nI am forever into self-sabotage<br \/>\nAnd I loved you more<br \/>\nThan I was willing to admit<br \/>\nI think I was just stupid<\/p>\n<p>We patched things eventually<br \/>\nAnd then such bigger and crazier things happened<br \/>\nActions and consequences that<br \/>\nCut the both of us through our bones<br \/>\nAnd sooner or later we always came back together<\/p>\n<p>Our lives went in separate directions<br \/>\nThings happened we can\u2019t take back<br \/>\nBut there are still nights I wonder<br \/>\nIf I had held onto you<br \/>\nWhere would we be now?<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>If I had gone with you\u2026 I think our lives would be very different now Sans stretch marks, C-section scars, and broken bones But I wanted to make sure you knew What you wanted Maybe that was stupid Maybe I was scared Maybe you seemed&#8230;<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":941,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[7,12,2114,1136,441,5],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-102232","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-marathon-poem","category-musings","category-official-marathon-announcement","category-official-marathon-prompts","category-poetry-prompt-responses","category-poetry-prompts"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/thepoetrymarathon.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/102232","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/thepoetrymarathon.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/thepoetrymarathon.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/thepoetrymarathon.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/941"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/thepoetrymarathon.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=102232"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/thepoetrymarathon.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/102232\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":102241,"href":"https:\/\/thepoetrymarathon.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/102232\/revisions\/102241"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/thepoetrymarathon.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=102232"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/thepoetrymarathon.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=102232"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/thepoetrymarathon.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=102232"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}