This time of year
\nalways meant so much
\nto me
\nfor so long<\/p>\n
Cookies and Christmas trees
\ndecorations and snow
\neven presents and family
\nto yell with-
\noh the chaos<\/p>\n
I’m not gonna lie
\nIt’s really hard this year
\neven though you’ve been
\ngone awhile-
\nstills cuts like glass
\neveryday<\/p>\n
Bitter
\nso very bitter
\neveryone else is happy
\nWHAT ABOUT ME DAMNIT?!<\/p>\n
Some days it doesn’t seem
\nlike you’ve gone and others
\nwell–
\nit’s the end of the world and
\nI don’t know how I’m going to
\nsurvive<\/p>\n
This year I don’t care
\nabout presents or
\nfamily or even
\nthe food-<\/p>\n
I just want to be left alone
\nI just want to be quiet awhile
\nwant someone to understand
\nmy pain
\nhurt
\nlonliness
\nand no one will<\/p>\n
Dragging christmas trees
\nbaking cookies and pies
\nmusic and impatiently waiting
\nlaughter and the tears
\neven the anger<\/p>\n
not those<\/p>\n
mistletoe
\npresents
\nand snow
\nnope- not that either<\/p>\n
there’s a difference
\nin my heart
\nmy attitude
\nI barely notice it<\/p>\n
so discontent
\ncrying
\nwhere is my peace<\/p>\n
What more is there
\nto my life
\nwhat more do I have to
\nlook forward to?<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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