{"id":103093,"date":"2021-06-27T08:46:34","date_gmt":"2021-06-27T12:46:34","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/thepoetrymarathon.com\/blog\/?p=103093"},"modified":"2021-06-27T08:46:34","modified_gmt":"2021-06-27T12:46:34","slug":"hour-23-anxiety","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/thepoetrymarathon.com\/blog\/2021\/06\/hour-23-anxiety\/","title":{"rendered":"Hour 23 – Anxiety"},"content":{"rendered":"

I wish my anxiety wasn\u2019t so desperate,\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

That I could plant seeds without immediately\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

Needing to dig them back up because<\/span><\/p>\n

Maybe they aren\u2019t the right seeds or\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

Maybe I don\u2019t know how to give them what they need.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

I wish I didn\u2019t feel the constant nagging<\/span><\/p>\n

To capture every moment, every person<\/span><\/p>\n

Because even in the happiest moments\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

All I can think about is the fact that\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

Everyone I know is going to die and\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

So am I and what are we if there\u2019s\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

Nothing to remember us by?\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

There are so many things\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

I\u2019m afraid I\u2019ll never do, and\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

If I don\u2019t, that my life is wasted.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

Things like giving back to my parents<\/span><\/p>\n

What they gave to me, or\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

Looking into my child\u2019s eyes for the first time,\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

Or finding that one person who\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

Doesn\u2019t think I\u2019m crazy for having<\/span><\/p>\n

Such a whirlwind of emotions.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

One who isn\u2019t as exhausted as<\/span><\/p>\n

I am over myself.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

I wish my anxiety wasn\u2019t so desperate,\u00a0 That I could plant seeds without immediately\u00a0 Needing to dig them back up because Maybe they aren\u2019t the right seeds or\u00a0 Maybe I don\u2019t know how to give them what they need.\u00a0   I wish I didn\u2019t feel…<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":3586,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[7],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-103093","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-marathon-poem"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/thepoetrymarathon.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/103093","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/thepoetrymarathon.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/thepoetrymarathon.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/thepoetrymarathon.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/3586"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/thepoetrymarathon.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=103093"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/thepoetrymarathon.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/103093\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":103096,"href":"https:\/\/thepoetrymarathon.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/103093\/revisions\/103096"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/thepoetrymarathon.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=103093"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/thepoetrymarathon.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=103093"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/thepoetrymarathon.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=103093"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}