{"id":110394,"date":"2022-06-25T13:31:04","date_gmt":"2022-06-25T17:31:04","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/thepoetrymarathon.com\/?p=110394"},"modified":"2022-06-25T13:31:04","modified_gmt":"2022-06-25T17:31:04","slug":"depression-return12pm","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/thepoetrymarathon.com\/blog\/2022\/06\/depression-return12pm\/","title":{"rendered":"depression Return12pm"},"content":{"rendered":"<p>I have spent days upon days<br \/>\nstuck in this hellish apartment<br \/>\nof which I know every inch<br \/>\nonly because I studied things<br \/>\nbecause I couldn&#8217;t move<\/p>\n<p>I didn&#8217;t want to do anything<br \/>\nI didn&#8217;t want to be anywhere<br \/>\nI just couldn&#8217;t-and I don&#8217;t know<br \/>\nhow it even started this time<\/p>\n<p>There is a light at the end today<br \/>\nthough-<br \/>\nfor the first time in a month<br \/>\nI can get up and clean<br \/>\nbut please understand<\/p>\n<p>I&#8217;m not generally a slob<br \/>\nI usually keep everything nice<br \/>\nand tidy<br \/>\neverything in its place simply because<br \/>\nthat&#8217;s less chaotic<\/p>\n<p>I&#8217;ve made my list and divided it into<br \/>\nreasonably small sections<br \/>\nby room and then by task<br \/>\nI&#8217;d better fuel up-<br \/>\nit&#8217;s going to be a long day and night<\/p>\n<p>breakfast first<br \/>\nDishes after<br \/>\nthat task is done<br \/>\nwhat next?<br \/>\nOh yes- The list<\/p>\n<p>The living room<br \/>\nneeds the trash picked up<br \/>\nlaundry put into the hamper<br \/>\nwhat did that dish come from?!<\/p>\n<p>Papers of past writing<br \/>\nthose need to be gone through<br \/>\non the couch-<br \/>\nYep; I got distracted once more<\/p>\n<p>back on task<br \/>\nthe bathroom will be last<br \/>\nthe grossest job in cleaning<br \/>\non to the bedroom<\/p>\n<p>Trash is gone-<br \/>\nbed is made<br \/>\nFloor has been vaccumed<br \/>\ndusting? For another day<br \/>\nA nap perhaps?<\/p>\n<p>two hours later<br \/>\nstill laying on my bed<br \/>\nI&#8217;ll have to make it again<br \/>\nWhy am I distracted yet again?<\/p>\n<p>My tummy has a rumble going<br \/>\non inside-I don&#8217;t think it&#8217;s very happy<br \/>\nwith me right now.<br \/>\nMaybe because It&#8217;s been about 8<br \/>\nhours since I last ate something<\/p>\n<p>Fueled once more<br \/>\nand I can see an end in sight<br \/>\nI just have a few more things to do<br \/>\nand then I can relax for awhile.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>I have spent days upon days stuck in this hellish apartment of which I know every inch only because I studied things because I couldn&#8217;t move I didn&#8217;t want to do anything I didn&#8217;t want to be anywhere I just couldn&#8217;t-and I don&#8217;t know how&#8230;<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1290,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[13],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-110394","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-miscellaneous"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/thepoetrymarathon.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/110394","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/thepoetrymarathon.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/thepoetrymarathon.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/thepoetrymarathon.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1290"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/thepoetrymarathon.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=110394"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/thepoetrymarathon.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/110394\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":110416,"href":"https:\/\/thepoetrymarathon.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/110394\/revisions\/110416"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/thepoetrymarathon.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=110394"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/thepoetrymarathon.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=110394"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/thepoetrymarathon.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=110394"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}