the bloodstain dark brown on bright white textured sheets<\/p>\n
i’m so sorry. it’s just i’ve been bleeding for so long i didn’t see it<\/p>\n
<\/p>\n
until it dried. now it’s there, evidence of my inadequacy, of my<\/p>\n
disgusting life and habits, the scabbing, the nonstop blood and<\/p>\n
compulsion to keep picking for more. more blood for me. more<\/p>\n
<\/p>\n
wounds across my body. scarred. ugly and horrific. if you only<\/p>\n
knew what was under my clothes you would lose it. look at me<\/p>\n
<\/p>\n
different. i’m not the friendly girl on the phone or the woman who<\/p>\n
smiles brightly when you enter the office. i’m not the person making<\/p>\n
<\/p>\n
you laugh or making you think hard about the state of the world.<\/p>\n
the bloodstain dark brown on bright white textured sheets.<\/p>\n
<\/p>\n
wounds across my body. scarred. ugly and horrific. i’m not the<\/p>\n
sweetheart doing you favors without pay to preserve some<\/p>\n
good on this earth. i’m nothing like that. i’m rotten and nasty;<\/p>\n
<\/p>\n
a walking sore, always oozing, never healing. a black hole of<\/p>\n
self-destruction and regret. i’m so sorry. i’ll clean it right away.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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