I tell my therapist my brother killed himself<\/p>\n
She asks if I am angry, I say no<\/p>\n
<\/p>\n
She wants to know what I am<\/p>\n
Jealous, I say<\/p>\n
My therapist asks me if I am suicidal<\/p>\n
<\/p>\n
I say no, I only want to die every day<\/p>\n
She fails to see the difference<\/p>\n
<\/p>\n
I insist that she is wrong<\/p>\n
The gap is monumental<\/p>\n
<\/p>\n
If I were a planner, perhaps, or a warrior at heart<\/p>\n
My brother was a planner, for all of his flaws<\/p>\n
<\/p>\n
Where I am merely a dreamer, all wants and desires<\/p>\n
But I am a bright orange cone on the highway with my eyes closed<\/p>\n
A slippery when wet while pouring water in the streets.<\/p>\n
<\/p>\n
My therapist says why fear, if you are not afraid to die<\/p>\n
She doesn\u2019t understand it isn\u2019t death I fear<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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