{"id":113193,"date":"2022-06-25T16:53:36","date_gmt":"2022-06-25T20:53:36","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/thepoetrymarathon.com\/?p=113193"},"modified":"2022-06-25T16:53:36","modified_gmt":"2022-06-25T20:53:36","slug":"carrot-cake","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/thepoetrymarathon.com\/blog\/2022\/06\/carrot-cake\/","title":{"rendered":"Carrot cake"},"content":{"rendered":"<p>There is just something about carrot cake<br \/>\nthat seems to almost let me forgot<br \/>\nForget that I am constantly at war with my brain<br \/>\nand that even the good days include skirmishes<br \/>\nAnd just for a moment not dwell on<br \/>\nall the ways I have managed to fail myself<\/p>\n<p>It is as if the warmth of the spice cake<br \/>\ncan entice me into ignoring the chaos<br \/>\nThe chaos that exists between bipolar and trauma<br \/>\nthat has left my brain looking like London in 1942<br \/>\nTo ignore the disarray that comes from<br \/>\nnever knowing why my brain is angry at me<\/p>\n<p>As if the lusciousness of cream cheese icing<br \/>\nenvelops me and keeps the despair away<br \/>\nDespair of knowing my diagnosis will not change<br \/>\nand that there is no respite from this fight<br \/>\nTo shield me from the disheartening reality<br \/>\nthat I will not be free from a hell of my own making<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>There is just something about carrot cake that seems to almost let me forgot Forget that I am constantly at war with my brain and that even the good days include skirmishes And just for a moment not dwell on all the ways I have&#8230;<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":4175,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[7],"tags":[4906,5163,680,4880,5153],"class_list":["post-113193","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-marathon-poem","tag-2022fullmarathon","tag-2022hour8","tag-poetrymarathon","tag-2022-poetry-marathon","tag-thepoet_rajah"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/thepoetrymarathon.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/113193","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/thepoetrymarathon.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/thepoetrymarathon.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/thepoetrymarathon.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/4175"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/thepoetrymarathon.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=113193"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/thepoetrymarathon.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/113193\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":113227,"href":"https:\/\/thepoetrymarathon.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/113193\/revisions\/113227"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/thepoetrymarathon.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=113193"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/thepoetrymarathon.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=113193"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/thepoetrymarathon.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=113193"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}