At night the curls are pinned up
\nFlexible, odd rods
\nMedusa, snaking in all directions.
\nDaylight reveals tight spirals gently combed
\nWaves and twirls
\nShifting highlights in the sun,
\nA peek of gray.<\/p>\n
The foundation is uniform
\nBut flat. Simple.
\nUnder her eyes a swipe of blue liner
\nFake lashes swish her glasses lenses
\nLibrarian frames.
\nHer lips aren’t plush,
\nBut they are sleek
\nGlossy.<\/p>\n
A dress tickles her knees.
\nBlock heels.
\nA necklace earrings some designer bag.<\/p>\n
I want her.
\nI want to slide into her flesh until hers
\nIs mine.<\/p>\n
But she is across an ocean
\nGalaxies away
\nMy feet clad in dirty flip flops.
\nHair in a sloppy braid.
\nRipped jeans – a fall, not fashion
\nT shirt
\nWrinkles bare
\nFlaws exposed.<\/p>\n
She is all I want.
\nI hate me. This me.
\nI was a her. I had a job and a reason
\nTo care
\nSome days someone noticed
\nSome days not.
\nNow who would I dress up for, the dog?
\nDoes he have prefences? Are they naugahyde?<\/p>\n
I don’t just long for her clothes.
\nIt’s everything
\nHer time
\nHer chance for compliments.
\nThe appreciation she may receive.<\/p>\n
I long to be what I was
\nBut I can’t find my way back.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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