{"id":120055,"date":"2022-06-26T03:57:53","date_gmt":"2022-06-26T07:57:53","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/thepoetrymarathon.com\/?p=120055"},"modified":"2022-06-26T03:57:53","modified_gmt":"2022-06-26T07:57:53","slug":"and-i-said-no","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/thepoetrymarathon.com\/blog\/2022\/06\/and-i-said-no\/","title":{"rendered":"And I said NO"},"content":{"rendered":"<p>Please don\u2019t ask me which<br \/>\nwas best\u2014 leaving or sitting<br \/>\nin an oak ten feet up.<br \/>\nIt was defibrillators primed.<br \/>\nI sat in an unpaved parking lot<br \/>\nunder Palmettos and said<br \/>\nNO<br \/>\nfor the first time. I could speak. <\/p>\n<p>How many ways can this be said?<\/p>\n<p>I choked on my love for him.<br \/>\nSuffocated. Self flagellated.<br \/>\nI placed the best parts of myself<br \/>\nunder his steel toed boot. <\/p>\n<p>I washed his grey. Sanitized it.<br \/>\nSanitized myself. <\/p>\n<p>No color for me. Black skies<br \/>\nin black shirts over a blackened<br \/>\nand charred heart. <\/p>\n<p>Somehow it still beats. <\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>Please don\u2019t ask me which was best\u2014 leaving or sitting in an oak ten feet up. It was defibrillators primed. I sat in an unpaved parking lot under Palmettos and said NO for the first time. I could speak. How many ways can this be&#8230;<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1119,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[13],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-120055","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-miscellaneous"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/thepoetrymarathon.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/120055","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/thepoetrymarathon.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/thepoetrymarathon.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/thepoetrymarathon.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1119"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/thepoetrymarathon.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=120055"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/thepoetrymarathon.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/120055\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":120100,"href":"https:\/\/thepoetrymarathon.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/120055\/revisions\/120100"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/thepoetrymarathon.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=120055"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/thepoetrymarathon.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=120055"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/thepoetrymarathon.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=120055"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}