I should have had,
\nwell, that implies i’m owed…
\nfacts are, i’m not.
\nCause numbers don’t lie
\nand 4 out of every 10 children are born to unwed mothers.
\nso, I wished I’d have had some guidance,
\nbut instead I had…<\/p>\n
“Books for beginners:
\nthings you need to know, if you didn’t have a dad”<\/p>\n
i’m still learning though,
\nbecause i couldn’t face the read!
\nWho wants to hear their own internal voice reading pep talks no one ever gave you?<\/p>\n
Yeah,
\ni’m still that kid!
\nNo matter how cruelly
\nmy brother calls me out
\nfor crying about things from so long past.<\/p>\n
Now i dream of knowledge
\nfrom the book of war!
\nNo longer do i seek the bond of kinship,
\ndreams of friendship laid to waste
\nfor the words of Clausewitz and Sun-tzu.
\nI am crafting my ability to survive<\/p>\n
There was a time i let the writings of the spirit guide me
\nUndoubted sent down truth.
\ni am still prone to seek the wisdom He has left there.
\nPromises of weights He knows my frame can bare,
\nto care for me, to not leave!
\nThere is the smolder of a fire ready to rage in me.
\nThe soot of sin making me desperate and dirty.<\/p>\n
Still, He reminds me His book is for old wounds and beginners too.<\/p>\n