Sometimes I feel like I\u2019m dying outside of your walls.
\nI\u2019m not giving up on you but maybe I need a minute to find myself.
\nBecause you got me feeling crazy over you.
\nI was praying for you for my whole life. I just didn\u2019t know it.
\nMy heart was a hardened dead thing until you beat it to life.
\nIf I scream it to the world would you finally hear the words inside?
\nAnd I wonder if you see the words stuck in my eyes.
\nThey say everything I can\u2019t bring from my lips.
\nIt\u2019s another night unraveling the seams from these dreams.
\nI\u2019m writing you into these books maybe you won\u2019t read.
\nYou\u2019re part of my story.
\nYou bled yourself in between every line until you were brought to life.
\nI poured every ounce of myself out to try to make you smile.
\nI lit myself on fire to try to defrost your defenses.
\nI made myself the joke just to hear you laugh.
\nNow here I am with nothing left.
\nContemplating your missing shadow with something akin to tenderness.
\nGot stuck in your games and missed every step I was supposed to make. <\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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