Suffocated, pressured,<\/p>\n
pressed, choking,<\/p>\n
rage that closed me in,<\/p>\n
shaking, aching, red and raw<\/p>\n
want to scream, to lash out.<\/p>\n
So I turned away,<\/p>\n
toxic ex, toxic biological father,<\/p>\n
go fuck yourselves.<\/p>\n
Such a potent phrase,<\/p>\n
one I wanted to yell<\/p>\n
in fat, smug, satisfied faces<\/p>\n
but that slammed door closed gentle,<\/p>\n
that closed heart eased,<\/p>\n
those bitter fists lowered<\/p>\n
to soft palms to press,<\/p>\n
to hold, to embrace the new life,<\/p>\n
my infant son, and the jeering<\/p>\n
voices of yesteryear would fade<\/p>\n
to old scars, to whispers,<\/p>\n
to nothing.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
Suffocated, pressured, pressed, choking, rage that closed me in, shaking, aching, red and raw want to scream, to lash out. So I turned away, toxic ex, toxic biological father, go fuck yourselves. Such a potent phrase, one I wanted to yell in fat, smug, satisfied…<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":214,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[7],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-127709","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-marathon-poem"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/thepoetrymarathon.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/127709","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/thepoetrymarathon.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/thepoetrymarathon.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/thepoetrymarathon.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/214"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/thepoetrymarathon.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=127709"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/thepoetrymarathon.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/127709\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":127898,"href":"https:\/\/thepoetrymarathon.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/127709\/revisions\/127898"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/thepoetrymarathon.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=127709"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/thepoetrymarathon.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=127709"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/thepoetrymarathon.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=127709"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}