written for a friend
\nTW :: Sexual matters<\/p>\n
There\u2019s a place where
\nI keep all of my secrets
\nwhere no one sees them
\nunless I invite them in<\/p>\n
I don\u2019t just trust blindly anymore
\nIt\u2019s taken me a long time
\nto cultivate the courage
\nto be able to share any
\nof my secrets with you<\/p>\n
I have a closet where
\nI keep everything that society
\nconsiders naughty where I store
\nall of the things that
\nsociety would frown upon<\/p>\n
Like the fact that I like to indulge in
\nintimate relations with a guy friend
\nthat is probably 15 years younger than
\nI am.<\/p>\n
And the fact that I am human, female
\nand I look at porn. It doesn\u2019t make me
\na bad person-
\nAnd I refuse to feel that way<\/p>\n
Just someone trying to find their
\nway through the aftermath of
\nbeing considered a sexual object
\nby older men for most of their
\nchildhood.<\/p>\n
In my closet are many things good and bad
\nso many secrets that I don\u2019t know if I
\ncan ever truly share without being
\nlooked down on<\/p>\n
like the fact that I was in a submissive
\nrelationship with a man that controlled me
\nbecause sometimes, that was the only way
\nI could respond<\/p>\n
Like the years that I was a whore
\nbecause that was the only way that I
\ncould relate to men-
\nIt\u2019s not the only way, and honestly it\u2019s
\na trite way to cope.<\/p>\n
I have a closet that, I\u2019m not sure anyone
\nelse needs to open it
\nMight not like what you find in there<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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