{"id":138775,"date":"2023-09-02T23:32:04","date_gmt":"2023-09-03T03:32:04","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/thepoetrymarathon.com\/blog\/?p=138775"},"modified":"2023-09-02T23:32:04","modified_gmt":"2023-09-03T03:32:04","slug":"i-choose-my-misery-15","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/thepoetrymarathon.com\/blog\/2023\/09\/i-choose-my-misery-15\/","title":{"rendered":"I choose my misery #15"},"content":{"rendered":"<p>Cook the brown<br \/>\nFill the syringe<br \/>\nFind a vein<br \/>\nNot on the edge.<\/p>\n<p>Sharp sting<br \/>\nOf anticipation<br \/>\nKeeps self loathing a bay<br \/>\nTime for time to stop<br \/>\nFor me to go away.<\/p>\n<p>Caught the dragon<br \/>\nThat first time<br \/>\nMan it was good<br \/>\nNow I realise<br \/>\nSyringe ryhmes<br \/>\nWith orange<br \/>\nWhen I add<br \/>\nA little blood.<\/p>\n<p>Press down slow<br \/>\nFeel the itch<br \/>\nAnd forget for a while<br \/>\nThat life&#8217;s a bitch.<\/p>\n<p>One misery not chosen<br \/>\nOutside control<br \/>\nSwapped for another<br \/>\nThat I can own,<br \/>\nThat I can turn<br \/>\nOn and off<br \/>\nBy taking a hit,<br \/>\nAnd making<br \/>\nThe chosen misery<br \/>\nFade,<br \/>\nFor just a little bit.<\/p>\n<p>You catch the dragon once<br \/>\nThat&#8217;s his trick<br \/>\nYou spend your life<br \/>\nIn vain vein misery<br \/>\nChasing<br \/>\nThat first pin pick.<\/p>\n<p>That first rush<br \/>\nThe last time<br \/>\nYou&#8217;ll ever feel<br \/>\nHeaven when you push<br \/>\nThe brown inside<br \/>\nBut it&#8217;s your misery<br \/>\nAnd yours alone<br \/>\nIt lies to you<br \/>\nBecause it&#8217;s you<br \/>\nBeing owned.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>Cook the brown Fill the syringe Find a vein Not on the edge. Sharp sting Of anticipation Keeps self loathing a bay Time for time to stop For me to go away. Caught the dragon That first time Man it was good Now I realise&#8230;<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":4830,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[7],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-138775","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-marathon-poem"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/thepoetrymarathon.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/138775","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/thepoetrymarathon.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/thepoetrymarathon.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/thepoetrymarathon.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/4830"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/thepoetrymarathon.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=138775"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/thepoetrymarathon.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/138775\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":138779,"href":"https:\/\/thepoetrymarathon.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/138775\/revisions\/138779"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/thepoetrymarathon.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=138775"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/thepoetrymarathon.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=138775"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/thepoetrymarathon.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=138775"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}