TW::
\nDeals with eating disorders<\/p>\n
If you play with fire
\neventually you’ll
\nget burned
\nisn’t this the way
\nit always is<\/p>\n
I never thought anything
\nwas supposed to get to me.
\nI thought I was
\nbig
\nbad
\ntough
\nthick skinned<\/p>\n
one day
\n43 minutes
\nNot so sure I
\ncan make it<\/p>\n
But you did this to me
\nmade me feel
\nstupid
\ninsecure
\nunworthy
\nugly<\/p>\n
You did this to me
\nhurt me
\npushed me down
\nMade me feel
\nlike I couldn’t do
\nanything right<\/p>\n
two days
\n1 hour
\n20 minutes
\nhow long since<\/p>\n
I want to ask you
\nnotice me
\nsee what I’m doing
\nto make you happy
\nnot me
\nI don’t matter<\/p>\n
I am not perfect
\nand I’m not the ideal
\nI can’t help it
\nI can’t be what you
\nwant me to be<\/p>\n
three days
\n8 hours
\nlittle by little
\nI’m doing it
\nAre you proud<\/p>\n
I’m tired of trying to conform
\nto what
\nyou want
\nyou think
\nyou wish
\nyou hope
\nI would be<\/p>\n
It’s not
\ngoing to happen
\nI have my own mind
\nbut you still try to
\npush it<\/p>\n
nitpick a little more
\nwhy don’t you
\nfind something else
\nwrong with
\nmy attitude
\nmy language
\nmy choices
\nme<\/p>\n
four days
\n14 hours
\n56 minutes
\nsince<\/p>\n
Every time I do it
\nI feel like a failure
\nlike Im disgusting
\nlike I’m unworthy
\nto even be seen<\/p>\n
I can’t do it anymore
\nI can’t make bad choices
\ncan’t spend my life trying
\nto please you
\nIt only brings me down<\/p>\n
what I know now
\nis you may only have
\nmy best interests at heart
\nbut you pick the wrong way
\nto go about it<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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