TW:::
\nDeals with Eating disorders<\/p>\n
Am I different
\nDo I look better
\nAre you pleased yet
\nCan I stop this ridiculous
\ncharade<\/p>\n
the clock’s ticking
\ntime is going by
\nbut you still
\ndon’t see it
\ncall me a drama queen<\/p>\n
Five days
\n13 hours
\nthe constant
\ncraving’s still there
\nnot as strong though<\/p>\n
I can’t be what everyone else
\nwants me to be
\nIt’s not right
\nIt’s not going to happen<\/p>\n
I know you want me to
\nhave everything
\nthat I could ever want
\nAnd I appreciate that
\nbut it doesn’t change facts<\/p>\n
You aren’t good for me
\nyou claim to love me
\nbut yet you hurt me this
\nway<\/p>\n
six days
\n1 minute
\nI’ve reached it
\nmy breaking point<\/p>\n
I’m crawling along
\non the floor
\non my hands
\nmy knees
\nBroken<\/p>\n
You broke me
\nSatisfied?
\nMade me not
\nwant it anymore<\/p>\n
Take a second
\njust to breathe
\nNope
\nDon’t want it anymore<\/p>\n
Congratulations
\ndamn you
\nI get over one addiction
\nJust to get fucked with
\nanother one<\/p>\n
Seven Days
\nI’m done
\nno more cravings
\nif they come up
\nI just ignore
\nthem<\/p>\n
Soon I won’t
\nbe able to fight off
\nanything
\nnot a cold
\nnot an infection
\nnot even diseases<\/p>\n
Maybe you’re proud of me now.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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