When I first started dreaming that you
\nnever left
\nyou still believed you hadn’t
\nthat partial inclusion entitled you to exist entirely
\nand somehow the thought of you made it to the top of the stack,
\nevery time
\nThe dreams were warm despite
\ntaking place in an imaginary January
\nbecause I was running from your abandonment while carrying you
\nthe additional one hundred and twenty seven pounds of dead weight and
\nyou pretending not to blame me, anymore
\nI get it
\nonce I became the monster under your bed, and the shadow that a
\nnightlight makes against the hallway walls
\nI could never not be just that
\neven if I slept beside you and we painted happy adjectives on my body
\nEven in my faintest whimper
\nyou still heard me roar
\nin the back of your head,
\nyou knew there was no cure for rabies.<\/p>\n
The dreams stopped being wonderlands
\n(although it played in the background
\nin low resolution)
\nand began to mimic bus terminals
\nOur sunrises began to shape themselves into yellow tinted lamps
\nthat collect flies and mosquitoes outside of train stations and twenty
\nfour hour convenience stores
\nthey flicker and die every few months
\nI swear I’ll replace them
\nbut I’m outgrowing the experience and all of your gifted sweaters
\nyarn cocoons
\nI wrapped myself in their knitting and you,
\nthinking I would come out
\nstill yours
\nlike that was the thing that made me beautiful
\nin my new dreams
\nwe hold hands at the bus stop
\nyou ask me what song I’m listening to,
\nbut I wipe you off my shoes in the grass<\/p>\n
<\/p>\n
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