{"id":144562,"date":"2023-09-04T00:59:44","date_gmt":"2023-09-04T04:59:44","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/thepoetrymarathon.com\/blog\/?p=144562"},"modified":"2023-10-09T19:15:35","modified_gmt":"2023-10-09T23:15:35","slug":"hour-12-closeted-hoarder","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/thepoetrymarathon.com\/blog\/2023\/09\/hour-12-closeted-hoarder\/","title":{"rendered":"Hour 12 &#8211; Closeted Hoarder -Prompt 12"},"content":{"rendered":"<div><\/div>\n<div>\n<p>I am a closeted hoarder<br \/>\nI collect everything<br \/>\nAnd find it hard to let go.<\/p>\n<p>Each item in my possession holds<br \/>\nsentiments and memories.<br \/>\nI am a closeted hoarder<br \/>\nI collect everything and<br \/>\nI am unable to let go.<\/p>\n<p>I am trying my best<br \/>\nto cleanse myself of this God awful habit<br \/>\nLike a cancer it spreads\u2013 invading my self esteem, y being\u2026<br \/>\nand I can\u2019t seem to shake it off.<\/p>\n<p>I reaffirm and remind myself<br \/>\n\u2018&#8217;You don\u2019t need this, you think you do, but, you don\u2019t.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>I am a closeted hoarder<br \/>\nI collect everything<br \/>\nAnd find it hard to let go.<\/p>\n<p>I am ashamed of myself<br \/>\nAnd I hate myself for it.<br \/>\nI know I need help \u2013 however, I am not ready to ask for help from the outside world.<br \/>\nI&#8217;m not there yet&#8230;<br \/>\nI&#8217;m trying to be strong<br \/>\nI\u2019m trying to help myself<br \/>\nbut it doesn\u2019t seem to be working<br \/>\nonly worsening -sickening habit.<br \/>\n\u201cI will get better.\u201d I lie to myself.<\/p>\n<p>I am a closeted hoarder<br \/>\nI collect everything<br \/>\nAnd find it hard to let go.<\/p>\n<p>I see myself letting go<br \/>\nand forgetting everything.<br \/>\nMy memories deny me access<br \/>\nto reminisce<br \/>\n-this is my worst fear.<br \/>\nAnd why I hold on<br \/>\nand struggle to let go.<\/p>\n<p>I am a closeted hoarder<br \/>\nI collect everything<br \/>\nAnd find it hard to let go.<\/p>\n<\/div>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>I am a closeted hoarder I collect everything And find it hard to let go. Each item in my possession holds sentiments and memories. I am a closeted hoarder I collect everything and I am unable to let go. I am trying my best to&#8230;<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":897,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[7],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-144562","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-marathon-poem"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/thepoetrymarathon.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/144562","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/thepoetrymarathon.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/thepoetrymarathon.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/thepoetrymarathon.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/897"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/thepoetrymarathon.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=144562"}],"version-history":[{"count":4,"href":"https:\/\/thepoetrymarathon.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/144562\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":145734,"href":"https:\/\/thepoetrymarathon.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/144562\/revisions\/145734"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/thepoetrymarathon.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=144562"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/thepoetrymarathon.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=144562"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/thepoetrymarathon.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=144562"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}