Inside there lives a monster<\/p>\n
It wreaks havoc on my soul<\/p>\n
to utterly destroy me,<\/p>\n
is it’s final goal<\/p>\n
The taste of it is pleasing,<\/p>\n
as I take it in<\/p>\n
Satisfaction for a moment,<\/p>\n
I need it once again<\/p>\n
Inside, I’m slowly dying<\/p>\n
I cant resist the pull<\/p>\n
It leaves me dark and empty<\/p>\n
it never leaves me full<\/p>\n
When I try to fight it,<\/p>\n
the stronger it becomes<\/p>\n
The need once again arises<\/p>\n
and to it I succumb<\/p>\n
I’ve prayed for God to take it<\/p>\n
and still it takes a hold<\/p>\n
His grace is sufficient<\/p>\n
is what I’m often told<\/p>\n
But I cannot resist it<\/p>\n
on my own I often fall<\/p>\n
So again on my Jesus<\/p>\n
I make a heartfelt call<\/p>\n
Will I ever rise above this<\/p>\n
Or am I doomed to be<\/p>\n
forever in its clutches<\/p>\n
It’s slowly drowning me<\/p>\n
I’ve even tried to hide it<\/p>\n
but it grows larger still<\/p>\n
It swallows me in darkness<\/p>\n
this cannot be your will<\/p>\n
Why can’t you take this from me<\/p>\n
I beg you, set me free<\/p>\n
I fear it holds me back<\/p>\n
from all I’m meant to be<\/p>\n
How can you look upon me<\/p>\n
and love me all the same<\/p>\n
when inside me grows a monster<\/p>\n
that I just cannot tame<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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