I can’t write a love poem.<\/p>\n
I’m thinking too much about loss.<\/p>\n
<\/p>\n
I’m thinking of the time when you came to my window<\/p>\n
I was fifteen, you were Starlight Incarnate<\/p>\n
in a borrowed ride, a black Toyota Celica<\/p>\n
that you weren’t even driving.<\/p>\n
<\/p>\n
I’m thinking about the night you went dancing<\/p>\n
but came to my place instead, you called me<\/p>\n
from the Bauhaus (your favorite coffeeshop? Mine too!)<\/p>\n
after years apart, yet always somehow together.<\/p>\n
<\/p>\n
You would never play the song from our wedding<\/p>\n
because it made you cry, and I teased you<\/p>\n
for being sentimental, and teased you again,<\/p>\n
for taking me to see Apocalypse Now on our honeymoon.<\/p>\n
<\/p>\n
I’m thinking about my picture of you<\/p>\n
holding our baby in your hospital bed<\/p>\n
nested in wires like a Geiger nightmare<\/p>\n
a man staring down the twin barrels of life and death.<\/p>\n
<\/p>\n
I’m thinking about you leaving, always leaving<\/p>\n
family night, date night, weekends with the parents and you<\/p>\n
constantly inching toward the door, your black bag<\/p>\n
and coat permanently under your arm.<\/p>\n
<\/p>\n
You got stoned and slept on the couch,<\/p>\n
and I went out and stayed out later<\/p>\n
as we became quietly unmoored from eachother.<\/p>\n
Until, even together, we were somehow always apart.<\/p>\n
<\/p>\n
I’m thinking that a love poem is a loss poem.<\/p>\n
The seed holds implicit the certain promise<\/p>\n
that one cold day the plant will wither,<\/p>\n
it’s frail brown stalk will crumble and be done.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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