I awoke from the dream<\/p>\n
Crying<\/p>\n
I called to Bear<\/p>\n
He came to me<\/p>\n
He held me and I sobbed in his arms<\/p>\n
I dreamed he would leave me<\/p>\n
He promised he would not<\/p>\n
And the feeling subsided<\/p>\n
There would be two more dreams<\/p>\n
Dreams where I walked alone<\/p>\n
My heart breaking<\/p>\n
But continuing on<\/p>\n
Bear hating me in the dreams<\/p>\n
Not speaking except in anger<\/p>\n
The feeling so familiar<\/p>\n
So remembered<\/p>\n
From the grade school friend at 10<\/p>\n
To my first official boyfriend at 13<\/p>\n
To my broken marriage<\/p>\n
Broken friendships<\/p>\n
So many more goodbyes<\/p>\n
Than I could count<\/p>\n
The death of my grandparents and my parents<\/p>\n
Death of my nieces and my nephew<\/p>\n
A trail of my own tears drowning me<\/p>\n
Haunting me at night as I slept alone<\/p>\n
Remembering I can always survive<\/p>\n
I always do, I always will<\/p>\n
But the destitution<\/p>\n
The crumbled walls of loneliness<\/p>\n
They haunt me<\/p>\n
I know the goodbyes are inevitable<\/p>\n
Hearts get broken<\/p>\n
People leave voluntarily or not<\/p>\n
It is being haunted<\/p>\n
By goodbyes and angry memories<\/p>\n
The ghosts hold me in chains<\/p>\n
I try to break free<\/p>\n
But they always come back<\/p>\n
I will inevitably end up alone<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
I awoke from the dream Crying I called to Bear He came to me He held me and I sobbed in his arms I dreamed he would leave me He promised he would not And the feeling subsided There would be two more dreams Dreams…<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":31,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[13],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-26485","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-miscellaneous"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/thepoetrymarathon.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/26485","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/thepoetrymarathon.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/thepoetrymarathon.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/thepoetrymarathon.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/31"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/thepoetrymarathon.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=26485"}],"version-history":[{"count":3,"href":"https:\/\/thepoetrymarathon.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/26485\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":29163,"href":"https:\/\/thepoetrymarathon.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/26485\/revisions\/29163"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/thepoetrymarathon.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=26485"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/thepoetrymarathon.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=26485"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/thepoetrymarathon.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=26485"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}