“I am choosing not to suffer uselessly \/ and not to use her \/ I choose to love \/ this time \/ for once \/ with all of my intelligence” – Adrienne Rich<\/p>\n
she and I<\/p>\n
terrified, i suppose i am<\/p>\n
we seem to be beyond choosing<\/p>\n
to be together or to not<\/p>\n
is beyond our faculties, to<\/p>\n
make a choice, a decision to suffer<\/p>\n
i often find prodding my brain uselessly<\/p>\n
to be a mere habit<\/p>\n
and also a comfort, not<\/p>\n
because it is comfortable but it is satisfying to<\/p>\n
the way that a hunter tortures a creature with no defense mechanisms to use<\/p>\n
that’s how i am with my brain some days (most days) without her<\/p>\n
she and I<\/p>\n
a life to choose<\/p>\n
our life begs us to<\/p>\n
to choose each other is to love<\/p>\n
to love this<\/p>\n
to embrace this time<\/p>\n
when we discover it is what we are made for<\/p>\n
just try it once<\/p>\n
your soul’s mirror to laugh with<\/p>\n
cry, hold, accept: all<\/p>\n
it is what we are made of<\/p>\n
i do believe, i choose her with all of my<\/p>\n
intelligence<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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