I want to change my life,<\/p>\n
To fundamentally alter who and what I am.<\/p>\n
I went to counseling. I confessed my inadequacies,<\/p>\n
Holding back my deepest and darkest, because<\/p>\n
<\/p>\n
Frankly, I already know what I need to do to fix myself.<\/p>\n
But I didn\u2019t want to do it. I don\u2019t want to do it.<\/p>\n
A broader character flaw is just a lack of follow through.<\/p>\n
I can start the program, but I can\u2019t keep it up.<\/p>\n
<\/p>\n
I quit going after three sessions.<\/p>\n
Wouldn\u2019t you know, going to therapy once a week is a program.<\/p>\n
I warned her, during our third session.<\/p>\n
I admitted how unmotivated I had been to go,<\/p>\n
How badly I wanted to cancel my plans.<\/p>\n
<\/p>\n
I cancel a lot of plans.<\/p>\n
And she asked me, bluntly,<\/p>\n
What would happen if I quit coming.<\/p>\n
And she asked me again, when I gave the easy answer,<\/p>\n
that I wouldn\u2019t get the change that I wanted.<\/p>\n
<\/p>\n
Aren\u2019t there other ways to get that change, she poked.<\/p>\n
Well, yes, I pondered. Meditation, journaling. Supplements.<\/p>\n
And for a moment I felt empowered, because there were so many ways to take action.<\/p>\n
But it slipped away. I knew the solution to my problem all along, I told you,<\/p>\n
But I can\u2019t keep up with the program.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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