I sit by myself.
\nQuietly.
\nI feel my breath move in
\nand out.
\nI want to shout.
\nTo scream.
\nTo feel emotion.
\nTo feel something.<\/p>\n
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\nSound, fast asleep.
\nHow can he do that?<\/em> And so easily?<\/p>\n
\nyet people know us as a couple.
\nA happy couple.
\nWho laugh and share.
\nWhat a joke. (on me.)
\nThis makes me laugh out loud.
\nMy giggle does not wake him.
\nDid I want that to happen?<\/em><\/p>\n
\nI would never have dreamed about this situation.
\nEither wanting it or being in it.
\nHow did I get here, anyway?<\/em><\/p>\n