{"id":40170,"date":"2017-08-06T02:09:49","date_gmt":"2017-08-06T06:09:49","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/thepoetrymarathon.com\/blog\/?p=40170"},"modified":"2017-08-10T02:32:40","modified_gmt":"2017-08-10T06:32:40","slug":"poem-17-loss-of-me-j-r-m","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/thepoetrymarathon.com\/blog\/2017\/08\/poem-17-loss-of-me-j-r-m\/","title":{"rendered":"Poem #17 (Loss of me j.r.m\u00a9)"},"content":{"rendered":"

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\nYou’re on video call<\/strong>
\nseeing you sleep\u00a0<\/strong>
\nlike a child gives <\/strong>
\nmy heart assurance.<\/strong>
\n…and even though <\/strong>
\nyour body is giving way<\/strong>
\nyour blooming heart carries you<\/strong>
\nforward. Your burst of <\/strong>
\nenthusiasm, your zeal, your passion<\/strong>
\nis something I have always\u00a0<\/strong>
\nwanted to emulate into <\/strong>
\nmy life but, somehow for\u00a0<\/strong>
\nsome reason I just can’t bring\u00a0<\/strong>
\nmyself to adopt it in my life.<\/strong>
\nIt’s one of those things\u00a0<\/strong>
\nthat I am willing to forego<\/strong>
\nas my inability, something <\/strong>
\nthat just isn’t etched in my <\/strong>
\nDNA. I lack the patience <\/strong>
\nto tolerate the trivialities <\/strong>
\nof mediocrity, which you do
\nso effortlessly. <\/strong>
\nI have realized that being this <\/strong>
\nclose to someone is destructive <\/strong>
\nfor my heart, but I chose you anyway.<\/strong>
\nYou’re 46, I am 28,<\/strong>
\nThe odds are not in our favor <\/strong>
\neveryone around us is holding a <\/strong>
\ngrudge with their spikes up in the air<\/strong>
\nready to attack the foundation<\/strong>
\nof our relationship.<\/strong>
\nSometimes it gets overwhelming<\/strong>
\nas to how we get dragged into these <\/strong>
\npetty games. Life has played many a cruel\u00a0<\/strong>
\njoke on you and I, to meet you at this age,<\/strong>
\nfor you, I can only imagine how hard it is\u00a0<\/strong>
\nto rearrange your life at the age you are at,\u00a0<\/strong>
\nTo make matters worse there’s the distance\u00a0<\/strong>
\nfactor playing a major role in our lives,<\/strong>
\n9,815 km separates us, yet here we are<\/strong>
\nstronger than ever. I have found my best <\/strong>
\nfriend in you, You have carved a niche <\/strong>
\nin my heart, slowly gradually expanding…<\/strong>
\nvacating the other things that \u00a0once occupied <\/strong>
\nsome place in my heart. Things that mattered<\/strong>
\nbefore, with much significance have become <\/strong>
\nutterly insignificant. Yes I know I sound like a <\/strong>
\nlovesick manic but….\u00a0<\/strong><\/p>\n

what I am trying to say is I have never been afraid\u00a0<\/strong>
\nof death until I met you.\u00a0<\/strong><\/p>\n

Loving you is a life long journey<\/strong>
\nlearning first handed the truth\u00a0<\/strong>
\nabout love. It’s not all rainbows\u00a0<\/strong>
\nand sunshine. Love will break you<\/strong>
\nbefore it teaches you about its nature.\u00a0<\/strong><\/p>\n

You mean the world <\/strong>
\nand losing you would mean the end\u00a0<\/strong>
\nof me.<\/strong><\/p>\n

j.r.m\u00a9<\/strong><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

You’re on video call seeing you sleep\u00a0 like a child gives my heart assurance. …and even though your body is giving way your blooming heart carries you forward. Your burst of enthusiasm, your zeal, your passion is something I have always\u00a0 wanted to emulate into…<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":897,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[7,13,12,2114],"tags":[2653],"class_list":["post-40170","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-marathon-poem","category-miscellaneous","category-musings","category-official-marathon-announcement","tag-loss-love-fear"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/thepoetrymarathon.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/40170","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/thepoetrymarathon.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/thepoetrymarathon.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/thepoetrymarathon.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/897"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/thepoetrymarathon.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=40170"}],"version-history":[{"count":4,"href":"https:\/\/thepoetrymarathon.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/40170\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":43978,"href":"https:\/\/thepoetrymarathon.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/40170\/revisions\/43978"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/thepoetrymarathon.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=40170"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/thepoetrymarathon.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=40170"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/thepoetrymarathon.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=40170"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}