1. the announcement<\/p>\n
I broadcasted the departure – as you
\nand you on boats,
\nferried away from
\nour resting place,
\nyour funeral
\nour bed.<\/p>\n
2. the revokation<\/p>\n
I limited the exposure I had to the sun – as you,
\nand you on beaches,
\nscurried away from
\nthe glances,
\nmy funeral,
\nyour hands.<\/p>\n
3. the eviction<\/p>\n
Simple. One day.
\nA remedy, a removal.
\nClothes and cleavers stacked into
\nthe back of an unforgettable buggy,
\nskunked up
\nin my absence.<\/p>\n
4. the rekindle<\/p>\n
All stubborn flames try to re-light
\nin the wrong exposure,
\nbut I smelled another smoke on your breath,
\nand I choked us out<\/p>\n
5. the sizing<\/p>\n
I will never fit into a wedding dress – as you,
\nand you at weddings
\ndanced away
\nfrom my eight attempts at an August proposal.<\/p>\n
<\/p>\n
6. the engagement<\/p>\n
Now void.<\/p>\n
7. both parts of a narcissist<\/p>\n
there is the cause and the effect
\nfor every violent word –
\nmy screaming pinned you to the ground,
\nyour ignorance kept me puking.
\nyou were the c a u s e
\nand I was the abuse.<\/p>\n
8. richocet<\/p>\n
I got back
\nevery pin head I put under your foot.
\ncoated them with chocolate
\nand swallowed them for dessert.
\nI kept you kept;
\nyou hated your keeper,
\nnot every caged animal
\nbites the feeder.<\/p>\n
9. record<\/p>\n
screenshots.
\npoems.<\/p>\n
10. you said…<\/p>\n
“don’t write me as a monster in every poem, I really do love you.”<\/p>\n
“You think terrible things about me, and I don’t think I can forgive you for that.”<\/p>\n
“I don’t have to listen to you. You aren’t my mother.”<\/p>\n
11. i said…<\/p>\n
“I won’t. You aren’t a monster, I love you too much.”<\/p>\n
“I don’t.”<\/p>\n
“I’m sorry.”<\/p>\n
12. i thought…<\/p>\n
“Stop haunting me. I am living in fear.”<\/p>\n
“You did terrible things to me, and I don’t think I can forgive you for that.”<\/p>\n
“I wanted to be heard, but who could talk over your anger? I only screamed because your hate was too loud.”<\/p>\n
<\/p>\n
13. the survival<\/p>\n
I’ll only say I did.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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