Solana sat at the kitchen table, tapping her saucer with a spoon.<\/p>\n
She could barely see it anymore, but she remembered<\/p>\n
The yellow roses from years of use, and the cup in her hand<\/p>\n
Was familiar and comforting.<\/p>\n
<\/p>\n
Her son thought she was vain because she didn\u2019t wear her glasses<\/p>\n
And fumbled when she reached for things.<\/p>\n
He didn\u2019t know the glasses no longer helped. Her vision was fading.<\/p>\n
Soon it would be gone.<\/p>\n
<\/p>\n
Each day she walked around the house as usual, filled with secrets.<\/p>\n
Hiding her oncoming blindness.<\/p>\n
Hiding her memory loss behind jokes.<\/p>\n
Hiding her grief. Hiding her fear.<\/p>\n
Hiding the new pills in her pocket.<\/p>\n
<\/p>\n
She didn\u2019t want to burden her family. No.<\/p>\n
They could worry later. They were lucky.<\/p>\n
Alzheimer\u2019s has a slow clock.<\/p>\n
<\/p>\n
Every time her husband went out, she went to the china cabinet<\/p>\n
Or the photo album or the rooms upstairs where the kids stay<\/p>\n
When they visit. She studied each familiar object,<\/p>\n
Committing it to memory. Before her eyes failed.<\/p>\n
Before her brain went blank.<\/p>\n
<\/p>\n
The disease consumed her waking thoughts.<\/p>\n
It never left her mind. It swamped her in grief.<\/p>\n
She was going to forget them all. It broke her heart.<\/p>\n
<\/p>\n
Soon familiar things, dear names and beloved faces<\/p>\n
would blink out one by one. Vacations in France.<\/p>\n
Early life in the mountains. Her wedding.<\/p>\n
The birth of her children and how they looked sleeping.<\/p>\n
Her husband striding down the beach all tan and windblown.<\/p>\n
<\/p>\n
Not telling them would be her last gift. Christmas Eve<\/p>\n
they would go to midnight mass, open their presents.<\/p>\n
Then she would tell them. They would all hug a lot.<\/p>\n
She would quietly take the pills that night.<\/p>\n
Eventually they would realize it was a kindness.<\/p>\n
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