Probably I could have done something differently.<\/p>\n
Can\u2019t we always find a way to blame ourselves?<\/p>\n
It\u2019s hard to reconcile when one person is finished<\/p>\n
but one is still bound in place by the memories.<\/p>\n
They were good memories. Full of life and joy.<\/p>\n
Perhaps I made the relationship revolve around me.<\/p>\n
That doesn\u2019t mean I didn\u2019t love you.<\/p>\n
Perhaps I could have shown it more\u2014though<\/p>\n
It always seemed we were happy and secure,<\/p>\n
I grieved a long time when you left.<\/p>\n
Send in the Clowns<\/em> was my anthem for years.<\/p>\n But I realize that my destiny can\u2019t be tied to someone<\/p>\n who leaves, or yours to someone who can\u2019t move.<\/p>\n As we\u2019ve discovered since, we can still care,<\/p>\n while knowing that the story we lived is over.<\/p>\n There were lessons to learn, but the long walk<\/p>\n we had together still brings me joy.<\/p>\n I loved those days, those days of innocence and<\/p>\n days of consequence. Sadly, you \u00a0reached<\/p>\n the inevitable transition sooner than I did.<\/p>\n I understand. There\u2019s peace in that.<\/p>\n <\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":" Probably I could have done something differently. Can\u2019t we always find a way to blame ourselves? It\u2019s hard to reconcile when one person is finished but one is still bound in place by the memories. They were good memories. Full of life and joy. Perhaps…<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1075,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[11],"tags":[2730,191,2122],"class_list":["post-42828","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-half-marathon-poem","tag-consequences","tag-loss","tag-vivian"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/thepoetrymarathon.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/42828","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/thepoetrymarathon.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/thepoetrymarathon.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/thepoetrymarathon.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1075"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/thepoetrymarathon.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=42828"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/thepoetrymarathon.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/42828\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":42849,"href":"https:\/\/thepoetrymarathon.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/42828\/revisions\/42849"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/thepoetrymarathon.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=42828"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/thepoetrymarathon.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=42828"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/thepoetrymarathon.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=42828"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}