{"id":53089,"date":"2019-06-23T08:01:50","date_gmt":"2019-06-23T12:01:50","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/thepoetrymarathon.com\/blog\/?p=53089"},"modified":"2019-06-23T08:01:50","modified_gmt":"2019-06-23T12:01:50","slug":"5-self-doubt","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/thepoetrymarathon.com\/blog\/2019\/06\/5-self-doubt\/","title":{"rendered":"5.Self-Doubt"},"content":{"rendered":"<p>Doubt has swallowed me whole.<\/p>\n<p>Stole my desire and even a tried to capture part of my soul .<\/p>\n<p>I get lost in his hold, lost in its grip and each month I become a captive bought and sold to the highest bidder .<\/p>\n<p>Weakness brought on with her sadness and regret .<\/p>\n<p>Allowing another beautiful day to slip by unable to harness the pure energy from within.<\/p>\n<p>I am a prisoner in my own body.<span class=\"Apple-converted-space\">\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n<p>Pain is my bondsman and for half the month I see no end in sight.<span class=\"Apple-converted-space\">\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n<p>Past hurts, unfinished work, I am not to be crossed, even I dare not try to rock my own<span class=\"Apple-converted-space\">\u00a0 <\/span>boat.<span class=\"Apple-converted-space\">\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n<p>I can ban all food fast away, yet the hurt will not quell the pain.<span class=\"Apple-converted-space\">\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n<p>No physical pain out does the mental anguish that remains.<span class=\"Apple-converted-space\">\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n<p>It\u2019s all the same.<span class=\"Apple-converted-space\">\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n<p>Some months are physical and others it\u2019s all in my mood.<\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p>All rights reserved copyright (c) 2019 Natasha Vanover<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>Doubt has swallowed me whole. Stole my desire and even a tried to capture part of my soul . I get lost in his hold, lost in its grip and each month I become a captive bought and sold to the highest bidder . Weakness&#8230;<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":785,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[7,13,441],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-53089","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-marathon-poem","category-miscellaneous","category-poetry-prompt-responses"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/thepoetrymarathon.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/53089","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/thepoetrymarathon.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/thepoetrymarathon.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/thepoetrymarathon.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/785"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/thepoetrymarathon.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=53089"}],"version-history":[{"count":3,"href":"https:\/\/thepoetrymarathon.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/53089\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":57697,"href":"https:\/\/thepoetrymarathon.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/53089\/revisions\/57697"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/thepoetrymarathon.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=53089"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/thepoetrymarathon.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=53089"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/thepoetrymarathon.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=53089"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}