The morning I heard<\/p>\n
I was at work<\/p>\n
Doubtful at first od the source<\/p>\n
Confident it was just a rumor<\/p>\n
My heart plummeted<\/p>\n
When the truth spoke up<\/p>\n
I tried to run, to leave, to flee<\/p>\n
But my legs failed<\/p>\n
And I fell to my knees<\/p>\n
A horrible cry escaping from me<\/p>\n
Tears blinded all I could see<\/p>\n
I haven\u2019t been the same<\/p>\n
Since that day<\/p>\n
I miss you more and more<\/p>\n
With the passing time<\/p>\n
They say it gets easier<\/p>\n
Learning to live without them<\/p>\n
But I\u2019m still waiting<\/p>\n
For my heart to stop aching<\/p>\n
For the familiar scenes to stop replaying<\/p>\n
For people to stop expecting<\/p>\n
That nothing\u2019s changed<\/p>\n
The day you died<\/p>\n
You took the person I was<\/p>\n
And left someone in my place<\/p>\n
Expected them to clean up the mess that we made.<\/p>\n
It\u2019s been almost 4 years<\/p>\n
And my life is quite different<\/p>\n
The world didn\u2019t stop<\/p>\n
I had to keep on living<\/p>\n
But for just a moment<\/p>\n
The world stopped spinning<\/p>\n
It left me held, suspended<\/p>\n
Ever since, I feel upside down<\/p>\n
This isn\u2019t the dream we shared<\/p>\n
It wasn\u2019t supposed to turn out this way<\/p>\n
Survivor\u2019s guilt is all that accompanies me<\/p>\n
It\u2019s the worst part of death<\/p>\n
That I hate<\/p>\n
How you just get stuck<\/p>\n
Fantasizing<\/p>\n
What it\u2019d be like<\/p>\n
If they were still living<\/p>\n
Preventing yourself from moving on<\/p>\n
I\u2019m still just hanging here on a moment<\/p>\n
Praying I\u2019ll see you again<\/p>\n
And you\u2019ll hold me close<\/p>\n
Just like you used to<\/p>\n
And finally,<\/p>\n
Everything will feel alright again.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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