{"id":56227,"date":"2019-06-23T04:27:49","date_gmt":"2019-06-23T08:27:49","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/thepoetrymarathon.com\/blog\/?p=56227"},"modified":"2019-06-27T08:07:47","modified_gmt":"2019-06-27T12:07:47","slug":"prompt-19-heightened-sensitivity-a-collaboration-with-numb-prompt-4","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/thepoetrymarathon.com\/blog\/2019\/06\/prompt-19-heightened-sensitivity-a-collaboration-with-numb-prompt-4\/","title":{"rendered":"Prompt #19 Heightened Sensitivity – A Collaboration with Numb -Prompt #4"},"content":{"rendered":"

Prompt #4 Numb<\/p>\n

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Prompt #4 Numb<\/h1>\n
Posted on\u00a0June 22, 2019 12:24pm EDT<\/a><\/span>\u00a0by\u00a0janiceraquelamendonca<\/a><\/span><\/span><\/div>\n<\/header>\n
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\r\nDead from the inside\u00a0<\/strong><\/em>\r\nI am numb.<\/strong><\/em>\r\nA complete shut down<\/strong><\/em>\r\nunresponsive to the external.<\/strong><\/em>\r\nImmovable, life wasting away.<\/strong><\/em>\r\nTired eyes and hungry heart<\/strong><\/em>\r\nall dead in a row.<\/strong><\/em>\r\nNo thirst to quench<\/strong><\/em>\r\nno dreams to conquer<\/strong><\/em>\r\npowerless in one way<\/strong><\/em>\r\npowerful in another<\/strong><\/em>\r\n- nothing affects me.<\/strong><\/em>\r\n\r\nNothing to lose,<\/strong><\/em>\r\nno fear, no feelings,\u00a0<\/strong><\/em>\r\nno attachment, no sorrow,\u00a0<\/strong><\/em>\r\nJust the bottomless pit <\/strong><\/em>\r\nof nothingness -encroaching.<\/strong><\/em><\/pre>\n
Overtaking... overcoming...\r\n<\/strong>infectious and familiar<\/strong><\/em><\/pre>\n
It feels comfortable, <\/strong><\/em><\/pre>\n
I am doomed anyway,\u00a0<\/strong><\/em>\r\nDamned if I do,<\/strong><\/em>\r\nDamned if I don't.<\/strong><\/em>\r\n\r\nHopelessness looms\u00a0<\/strong><\/em>\r\nlike a shadow.\u00a0<\/strong><\/em>\r\nWasted life,\u00a0<\/strong><\/em>\r\nWasted years,<\/strong><\/em>\r\nThe Pointlessness of the point,<\/strong><\/em>\r\nat the edge of reason\u00a0<\/strong><\/em>\r\nand lingering disappointment.<\/strong><\/em>\r\n\r\nFar from any harm,<\/strong><\/em>\r\nremoved and isolated<\/strong><\/em>\r\ndetached and unemotional,\u00a0<\/strong><\/em>\r\nI let that shit go.\u00a0<\/strong><\/em>\r\n\r\nOnly to dive deep<\/strong><\/em>\r\nHead first into the chaos of living.<\/strong><\/em>\r\nThe madness of emotions.<\/strong><\/em>\r\nThe passage through life.<\/strong><\/em>\r\n\r\nI am waking up,<\/strong><\/em>\r\nUndoing these chains\u00a0<\/strong><\/em>\r\nthat have held me down\u00a0<\/strong><\/em>\r\nfor far too long.<\/strong><\/em>\r\nI am becoming human.<\/strong><\/em>\r\nI am living.\u00a0<\/strong><\/em>\r\n\r\nI open the doors\u00a0<\/strong><\/em>\r\nand let it surge.<\/strong><\/em>\r\n\r\n-Janice Raquela Mendonca \r\n\r\n\r\n\r\n\r\nHeightened Sensitivity\r\n\r\nAwakened<\/strong><\/em><\/pre>\n
Aware<\/strong><\/em>
\nAlert<\/strong><\/em>
\nAlive\u00a0<\/strong><\/em>
\nThe flood gates burst forth<\/strong><\/em><\/p>\n
Let them in<\/strong><\/em><\/pre>\n
Life so consumed\u00a0<\/strong><\/em>\r\nOverwhelmed\u00a0<\/strong><\/em>\r\nCrowded by so many things<\/strong><\/em>\r\nwaiting to be felt,\u00a0<\/strong><\/em>\r\nacknowledged.\u00a0<\/strong><\/em>\r\nWaiting for some sort of response.<\/strong><\/em>\r\n\r\nSmack dab in harms way<\/strong><\/em>\r\ninvolved and participated.<\/strong><\/em>\r\nSo many emotions\u00a0<\/strong><\/em>\r\nwhich should I feel<\/strong><\/em>\r\nIndecisiveness takes over.\u00a0<\/strong><\/em>\r\n\r\nI want to break free<\/strong><\/em>\r\nI want to let go<\/strong><\/em>\r\nbut I can't escape.<\/strong><\/em>\r\n\r\nI want to become invincible,\u00a0<\/strong><\/em>\r\nI want to become powerful.<\/strong><\/em>\r\n\r\nI am human, <\/strong><\/em>\r\nI am not perfect.<\/strong><\/em>\r\n\r\n-Janice Raquela Mendonca<\/strong><\/em><\/pre>\n
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