It’s going to hurt<\/p>\n
for so long<\/p>\n
I just want it to end<\/p>\n
<\/p>\n
I have so much pain<\/p>\n
inside<\/p>\n
It’s gotta come out somehow<\/p>\n
<\/p>\n
No one noticed the pain<\/p>\n
How could they?<\/p>\n
They’ve got their own<\/p>\n
I’m not the only one<\/p>\n
<\/p>\n
I just don’t understand<\/p>\n
How could God come to<\/p>\n
take her home with him<\/p>\n
Why I found her<\/p>\n
Why the image won’t leave<\/p>\n
<\/p>\n
You had such a beautiful smile<\/p>\n
grace<\/p>\n
way about you<\/p>\n
and I don’t even remember<\/p>\n
your voice<\/p>\n
<\/p>\n
I have pictures to remind me<\/p>\n
of your smile and how<\/p>\n
you look<\/p>\n
but it’s no substitute<\/p>\n
for hav ing you here<\/p>\n
<\/p>\n
I took you for granted<\/p>\n
so many times<\/p>\n
I had child like fantasies<\/p>\n
where you would always<\/p>\n
be here and Dad would<\/p>\n
be my knight in shining armor<\/p>\n
<\/p>\n
I really need to punch<\/p>\n
something<\/p>\n
But what?<\/p>\n
Anything to get my<\/p>\n
pain out<\/p>\n
By any means necessary<\/p>\n
<\/p>\n
I’m survivng<\/p>\n
Barely<\/p>\n
Just barely holding<\/p>\n
my head above the<\/p>\n
flood<\/p>\n
that threatens to bury me<\/p>\n
<\/p>\n
I’m drowning-<\/p>\n
Just drowning to<\/p>\n
the point of being<\/p>\n
overcome<\/p>\n
<\/p>\n
I can’t find a way<\/p>\n
to get out from under<\/p>\n
this<\/p>\n
It’s choking me<\/p>\n
hands around my throat<\/p>\n
Squeezing tight<\/p>\n
Can’t breathe<\/p>\n
<\/p>\n
One second I’m<\/p>\n
Happy, laughing<\/p>\n
Next?<\/p>\n
Angry and so ready to<\/p>\n
punch something<\/p>\n
<\/p>\n
Lying here alone<\/p>\n
I need you here<\/p>\n
You made living easy<\/p>\n
<\/p>\n
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