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If you play with fire<\/p>\n
eventually you’ll<\/p>\n
get burned<\/p>\n
isn’t this the way<\/p>\n
it always is<\/p>\n
<\/p>\n
I never thought anything<\/p>\n
was supposed to get to me.<\/p>\n
I thought I was<\/p>\n
big<\/p>\n
bad<\/p>\n
tough<\/p>\n
thick skinned<\/p>\n
<\/p>\n
one day<\/p>\n
43 minutes<\/p>\n
Not so sure I<\/p>\n
can make it<\/p>\n
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But you did this to me<\/p>\n
made me feel<\/p>\n
stupid<\/p>\n
insecure<\/p>\n
unworthy<\/p>\n
ugly<\/p>\n
<\/p>\n
You did this to me<\/p>\n
hurt me<\/p>\n
pushed me down<\/p>\n
Made me feel<\/p>\n
like I couldn’t do<\/p>\n
anything right<\/p>\n
<\/p>\n
two days<\/p>\n
1 hour<\/p>\n
20 minutes<\/p>\n
how long since<\/p>\n
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I want to ask you<\/p>\n
notice me<\/p>\n
see what I’m doing<\/p>\n
to make you happy<\/p>\n
not me<\/p>\n
I don’t matter<\/p>\n
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I am not perfect<\/p>\n
and I’m not the ldeal<\/p>\n
I can’t help it<\/p>\n
I can’t be what you<\/p>\n
want me to be<\/p>\n
<\/p>\n
three days<\/p>\n
8 hours<\/p>\n
little by little<\/p>\n
I’m doing it<\/p>\n
Are you proud<\/p>\n
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I’m tired of trying to conform<\/p>\n
to what<\/p>\n
you want<\/p>\n
you think<\/p>\n
you wish<\/p>\n
you hope<\/p>\n
I would be<\/p>\n
<\/p>\n
It’s not<\/p>\n
going to happen<\/p>\n
I have my own mind<\/p>\n
but you still try to<\/p>\n
push it<\/p>\n
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nitpick a little more<\/p>\n
why don’t you<\/p>\n
find something else<\/p>\n
wrong with<\/p>\n
my attitide<\/p>\n
my language<\/p>\n
my choices<\/p>\n
me<\/p>\n
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four days<\/p>\n
14 hours<\/p>\n
56 minutes<\/p>\n
since<\/p>\n
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Everytime I do it<\/p>\n
I feel like a failure<\/p>\n
like Im disgusting<\/p>\n
like I’m unworthy<\/p>\n
to even be seen<\/p>\n
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I can’t do it anymore<\/p>\n
I can’t make bad choices<\/p>\n
can’t spend my life trying<\/p>\n
to please you<\/p>\n
It only brings me down<\/p>\n
<\/p>\n
what I know now<\/p>\n
is you may only have<\/p>\n
my best interests at heart<\/p>\n
but you pick the wrong way<\/p>\n
to go about it<\/p>\n
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Am I different<\/p>\n
Do I look better<\/p>\n
Are you pleased yet<\/p>\n
Can I stop this ridiculous<\/p>\n
charade<\/p>\n
<\/p>\n
the clock’s ticking<\/p>\n
time is going by<\/p>\n
but you still<\/p>\n
don’t see it<\/p>\n
call me a drama queen<\/p>\n
<\/p>\n
Five days<\/p>\n
13 hours<\/p>\n
the constant<\/p>\n
craving’s still there<\/p>\n
not as strong though<\/p>\n
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I can’t be what everyone else<\/p>\n
wants me to be<\/p>\n
It’s not right<\/p>\n
It’s not going to happen<\/p>\n
<\/p>\n
I know you want me to<\/p>\n
have everything<\/p>\n
that I could ever want<\/p>\n
And I appreciate that<\/p>\n
but it doesn’t change facts<\/p>\n
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You aren’t good for me<\/p>\n
you claim to love me<\/p>\n
but yet you hurt me this<\/p>\n
way<\/p>\n
<\/p>\n
six days<\/p>\n
1 minute<\/p>\n
I’ve reached it<\/p>\n
my breaking point<\/p>\n
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I’m crawling along<\/p>\n
on the floor<\/p>\n
on my hands<\/p>\n
my knees<\/p>\n
Broken<\/p>\n
<\/p>\n
You broke me<\/p>\n
Satisfied?<\/p>\n
Made me not<\/p>\n
want it anymore<\/p>\n
<\/p>\n
Take a second<\/p>\n
just to breathe<\/p>\n
Nope<\/p>\n
Don’t want it anymore<\/p>\n
<\/p>\n
Congratulations<\/p>\n
damn you<\/p>\n
I get over one addiction<\/p>\n
Just to get fucked with<\/p>\n
another one<\/p>\n
<\/p>\n
Seven Days<\/p>\n
I’m done<\/p>\n
no more cravings<\/p>\n
if they come up<\/p>\n
I just ignore<\/p>\n
them<\/p>\n
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Soon I won’t<\/p>\n
be able to fight off<\/p>\n
anything<\/p>\n
not a cold<\/p>\n
not an infection<\/p>\n
not even diseases<\/p>\n
<\/p>\n
Maybe you’re proud of me now.<\/p>\n
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