{"id":61773,"date":"2020-06-27T09:16:37","date_gmt":"2020-06-27T13:16:37","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/thepoetrymarathon.com\/blog\/?p=61773"},"modified":"2020-06-27T09:16:37","modified_gmt":"2020-06-27T13:16:37","slug":"hour-1-post-1-the-costume","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/thepoetrymarathon.com\/blog\/2020\/06\/hour-1-post-1-the-costume\/","title":{"rendered":"Hour 1: Post 1: The Costume"},"content":{"rendered":"

Who will I be?<\/span><\/p>\n

The question I ask myself\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

hundreds of times a day.<\/span><\/p>\n

The perfect soccer mom-<\/span><\/p>\n

mini van\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

baked goods\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

PTA<\/span><\/p>\n

Barbie looks with my newly pressed dress<\/span><\/p>\n

nails done<\/span><\/p>\n

hair up\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

ready for the front page.<\/span><\/p>\n

The trophy wife-<\/span><\/p>\n

dinner on the table<\/span><\/p>\n

waiting eagerly for my lover to walk through the door<\/span><\/p>\n

cater to their every need<\/span><\/p>\n

slaving over the hot stove in ninety degree heat\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

kids screaming\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

mom\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

mom\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

mom\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

all day blaring like trumpets\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

in the background.<\/span><\/p>\n

The perfect daughter-<\/span><\/p>\n

her shit together<\/span><\/p>\n

never saying anything out of the way<\/span><\/p>\n

polite\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

content\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

never doing wrong\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

no past to speak of\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

cant get anyone upset.<\/span><\/p>\n

Or maybe just me-<\/span><\/p>\n

The mom who tries her best\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

yet still feels like a complete failure\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

list isn’t done<\/span><\/p>\n

clothes aren’t perfect<\/span><\/p>\n

dust on the shelf<\/span><\/p>\n

stepping on toys<\/span><\/p>\n

crying in the closet<\/span><\/p>\n

drinking wine for breakfast<\/span><\/p>\n

cussing like a sailor<\/p>\n

barefoot on the porch<\/p>\n

anxiety setting in.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

Giving my all\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

but is that enough?\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

Seems to be\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

but the demon in my head\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

screams<\/span><\/p>\n

no\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

no\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

no<\/span><\/p>\n

you’re failing!<\/span><\/p>\n

Get it right!\u00a0\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

The daughter<\/span><\/p>\n

the sister<\/span><\/p>\n

the mother<\/p>\n

the friend<\/p>\n

trying to prove my life is all together;<\/span><\/p>\n

yet slipping back\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

every chance I get to get ahead.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

Here he goes again.<\/span><\/p>\n

screaming.<\/span><\/p>\n

no\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

no\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

no<\/span><\/p>\n

you’re failing.<\/span><\/p>\n

But here I am\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

day by day<\/span><\/p>\n

putting on my perfect society approved costume<\/span><\/p>\n

just to get by<\/span><\/p>\n

and fighting like hell<\/span><\/p>\n

to do the best I can.<\/span><\/p>\n

I am my own inspiration.<\/p>\n

I am the best version I can be.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

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