Dear 020298,<\/p>\n
I exist, at times just barely, for the careful ways you tear me open.
\nYou always find the truths I’ve left unspoken but I’m not hiding from you, I’m hiding from me.
\nThat last conversation left me raw stripped exposed and god knows I pay the price in private.
\nYou hold the scalpel with precision for each incision, it’s better that you do it, so I don’t have to anymore.<\/p>\n
It’s romantic in a way, how you exsanguinate the places that are begging to feel
\nand on the days I don’t feel real, you shove me back into my body.
\nCall me impulsive, inconsistent, as long as you keep calling I’ll keep crawling toward a future.
\nYou say that I’m a pendulum, swinging between control and having none,
\nnot wanting to be seen but always feeling far away.<\/p>\n
Tell me about choices,\u00a0remind me how to pronounce “no”.
\nYou say you have to go, but I’m still sitting here an open wound.
\nIt’s been four months, six numbers, and one space where I can bleed.<\/p>\n
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