{"id":69040,"date":"2020-06-27T17:45:04","date_gmt":"2020-06-27T21:45:04","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/thepoetrymarathon.com\/blog\/?p=69040"},"modified":"2020-06-29T13:04:51","modified_gmt":"2020-06-29T17:04:51","slug":"trust-issues-hr-8","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/thepoetrymarathon.com\/blog\/2020\/06\/trust-issues-hr-8\/","title":{"rendered":"Trust Issues (HR 8)"},"content":{"rendered":"<blockquote>\n<p style=\"text-align: center\">It\u2019s hard to trust others when I\u2019ve told people about my past<\/p>\n<\/blockquote>\n<p style=\"text-align: center\">Only for them to turn around and use it against me<br \/>\nThey know what broke me<br \/>\nAnd in turn used it to continue to break me<br \/>\nThey\u2019ve seen the tears others caused me flowing down my face<br \/>\nAnd they had the nerve to hug me<br \/>\nThen laughed at me and told me I was overreacting<br \/>\nWhen they caused them<br \/>\nThey knew what hurt me<br \/>\nAnd they said they would never do the same<br \/>\nBut all they did was mirror the actions<br \/>\nAnd made things worse<br \/>\nI begged for the pain to stop<br \/>\nAnd they continued to dig the hold deeper<br \/>\nAnd the more I tried to climb out<br \/>\nThey continued to throw in the dirt<br \/>\nForgive me if I won\u2019t let you get close to me<br \/>\nWhen I\u2019ve already had people close shatter me<br \/>\nThe ones who I was supposed to be able to rely on<br \/>\nWho left me confused in this world<br \/>\nI had to figure out on my own how to uplift myself<br \/>\nHow to smile without feeling embarrassed<br \/>\nAnd how to love my own soul<br \/>\nForgive if I don\u2019t believe you when you say you&#8217;re different<br \/>\nBecause that\u2019s what they all say<br \/>\nUntil they get you alone<br \/>\nAnd show you their true intentions<br \/>\nI know I have my guard up<br \/>\nI have never had anyone make me feel like I can put down my weapon<br \/>\nNor have they made me feel protected<br \/>\nI always stand ready to take action<br \/>\nMaybe someday I will open up<br \/>\nMaybe someone will provide me with a safe haven<br \/>\nInstead of making me feel caved in<br \/>\nThe more people play me, the longer it takes me to recoup<br \/>\nIt\u2019s going to take a lot if you want me to trust you<br \/>\nAnd forgive me for having you jump through so many hoops<br \/>\nBut these become the consequences when you have trust issues<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>It\u2019s hard to trust others when I\u2019ve told people about my past Only for them to turn around and use it against me They know what broke me And in turn used it to continue to break me They\u2019ve seen the tears others caused me&#8230;<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1307,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[7],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-69040","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-marathon-poem"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/thepoetrymarathon.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/69040","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/thepoetrymarathon.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/thepoetrymarathon.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/thepoetrymarathon.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1307"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/thepoetrymarathon.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=69040"}],"version-history":[{"count":2,"href":"https:\/\/thepoetrymarathon.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/69040\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":69208,"href":"https:\/\/thepoetrymarathon.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/69040\/revisions\/69208"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/thepoetrymarathon.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=69040"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/thepoetrymarathon.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=69040"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/thepoetrymarathon.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=69040"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}