{"id":69649,"date":"2020-06-27T18:45:07","date_gmt":"2020-06-27T22:45:07","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/thepoetrymarathon.com\/blog\/?p=69649"},"modified":"2020-06-27T18:58:22","modified_gmt":"2020-06-27T22:58:22","slug":"poem-marathon-submission-10","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/thepoetrymarathon.com\/blog\/2020\/06\/poem-marathon-submission-10\/","title":{"rendered":"Poem Marathon Submission #10"},"content":{"rendered":"<pre>It's Not a Fair Request\r\nAnn WJ White\r\n\r\n\r\nThe song reverberates around the soothing sound of music.\r\nPeople nod and hum along, \r\nA song of loss, but acceptance.\r\nI will not accept.\r\nMy heart beats with a slide, a murmur,\r\nthe wall thickens, the prison fights back.\r\nThe stenosis of my heart\r\nbleeds, can't hold the blood,\r\nMust be caught out and removed.\r\nThe only way to survey is not\r\nto give into the pain,\r\nbut to fight it.\r\nTo growl and mask a face like\r\na wild animal. \r\nI can't let niceness win.\r\nThis is my life.\r\nA open heart surgery.\r\nA chest opened, without the ability\r\nof medication instead.\r\nAt the moment that the calcium \r\nin my valve fixes itself shut like glue,\r\nI am dead. \r\nI won't celebrate that.\r\n\r\nMy brain fuddles around, killing itself.\r\nIt takes aim at the immune cells\r\nthe T and B cells.\r\nThere is a riot in my brain.\r\nIf a virus or bacteria\r\nscoots in along the white matter, if it \r\nremembers the formulation in the DNA.\r\nThe white blood cells will leapt\r\nforming a battle against \r\nanything that doesn't belong, even stress.\r\nStranger danger!\r\nThe brain will attack medications\r\nthat have similar DNA.\r\nI can't sit and listen \r\nto a healthy punk tell me\r\nhow grateful I must be.\r\nI fight for every day of my life.\r\nI can't be healed with medicines,\r\nthey can only try to shut it down until\r\nthe next circus that my body brings forward.\r\nIt's called Multiple Sclerosis,\r\nwith a pandemic, virus, stress or germ\r\nmy brain can be shredded. \r\nA puzzle torn, ripped, unfixable.\r\nNo soft delicate feelings making me nice.\r\nI won't die, not by ignorance or \r\nfoolishness. I'll fight for my life.\r\nThen I'll write a song.<\/pre>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>It&#8217;s Not a Fair Request Ann WJ White The song reverberates around the soothing sound of music. People nod and hum along, A song of loss, but acceptance. I will not accept. My heart beats with a slide, a murmur, the wall thickens, the prison&#8230;<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1412,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[7,13,12,441,5],"tags":[3766,3769,3768,3765,3770,3767],"class_list":["post-69649","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-marathon-poem","category-miscellaneous","category-musings","category-poetry-prompt-responses","category-poetry-prompts","tag-disease","tag-dont-sing-rage","tag-fight-for-survival","tag-multiple-sclerosis","tag-no-medication-to-cure-battleground","tag-plague"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/thepoetrymarathon.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/69649","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/thepoetrymarathon.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/thepoetrymarathon.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/thepoetrymarathon.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1412"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/thepoetrymarathon.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=69649"}],"version-history":[{"count":3,"href":"https:\/\/thepoetrymarathon.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/69649\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":70001,"href":"https:\/\/thepoetrymarathon.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/69649\/revisions\/70001"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/thepoetrymarathon.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=69649"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/thepoetrymarathon.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=69649"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/thepoetrymarathon.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=69649"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}