I think maybe I am a fool.<\/p>\n
I wanted to say, “I am a fool” with an exclamation point.<\/p>\n
But, as I began to declare it, I thought<\/p>\n
“I think maybe I am. I think maybe I am a fool.” exclamation point.<\/p>\n
I am often fooled, so maybe by definition, I am a fool.<\/p>\n
I am fooled by sweet faces and kind words and promises not in writing, and even promises in writing that are unenforceable. I am fooled by those kind of people who fain self deprecation when they show you their ugly insides. I am fooled by the dissonance of their words to their slightnesses and ultimately their true behaviors. I am fooled by kindness turned to raging victim stances. I am fooled by people who say they are one thing to the world and reveal their viciousnesses in private to me over and over and over.. simultaneously.<\/p>\n
I am fooled by the vast pendulum swing,<\/p>\n
and how desperately people hold onto their side.<\/p>\n
I am fooled that I might be welcomed at either end.<\/p>\n
<\/p>\n
I am fooled by the mianspiritednesses of people<\/p>\n
who will not stop until their way is the only way.<\/p>\n
<\/p>\n
I am fooled by my need to believe a person who says they are good, and does not practice being good, but continues to say they are good. I am actually completely baffled by those, so maybe I am a fool… a simple fool who trusts people to be who they say they are with corresponding energies, not the wink wink nudge nudge ones\u00a0 who laugh a bit under their breath when they promise to annihilate you for calling them into the light, who do annihilate you when their cover is pulled off.<\/p>\n
Exclamation point.<\/p>\n
<\/p>\n
Elizabeth Fellows<\/p>\n
6\/27\/2020, 1pm.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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