{"id":72617,"date":"2020-06-28T00:06:33","date_gmt":"2020-06-28T04:06:33","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/thepoetrymarathon.com\/blog\/?p=72617"},"modified":"2020-06-28T07:57:28","modified_gmt":"2020-06-28T11:57:28","slug":"why-is-it-happening-3","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/thepoetrymarathon.com\/blog\/2020\/06\/why-is-it-happening-3\/","title":{"rendered":"Why is it happening &#8211; #3"},"content":{"rendered":"<p>I don&#8217;t understand it anymore<br \/>\nafter I shut my heart off to it<br \/>\nit has been nothing but pain for me in the past<br \/>\nlove &#8211; why is it happening again?<\/p>\n<p>death took two away from me<br \/>\nwhy do I question it so much?<br \/>\nit scares me to love like this<br \/>\nbut I deserve to love and be loved<\/p>\n<p>I have loved him for many years<br \/>\npushed him away every time<br \/>\nI&#8217;m scared to let it in fully<br \/>\nwhat if it&#8217;s taken away again?<\/p>\n<p>my whole body wants to scream<br \/>\nall of these feelings hit like tidal waves<br \/>\nI still want my piece of happiness<br \/>\nbut scared of losing it again<\/p>\n<p>it&#8217;s far too late to give it up<br \/>\nwe now have a baby girl together<br \/>\nhe has asked me to be his wife<br \/>\nlove &#8211; why is it happening again<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>I don&#8217;t understand it anymore after I shut my heart off to it it has been nothing but pain for me in the past love &#8211; why is it happening again? death took two away from me why do I question it so much? it&#8230;<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1045,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[11],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-72617","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-half-marathon-poem"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/thepoetrymarathon.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/72617","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/thepoetrymarathon.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/thepoetrymarathon.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/thepoetrymarathon.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1045"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/thepoetrymarathon.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=72617"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/thepoetrymarathon.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/72617\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":72926,"href":"https:\/\/thepoetrymarathon.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/72617\/revisions\/72926"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/thepoetrymarathon.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=72617"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/thepoetrymarathon.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=72617"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/thepoetrymarathon.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=72617"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}