personality, understanding and love,<\/p>\n
i am not me,<\/p>\n
personality diluted and many personas intrude into my dream<\/p>\n
struggled in all three areas,<\/p>\n
constantly shifting and changing in to a different persona i don’t know who i am,<\/p>\n
i was stuck running away from,<\/p>\n
the constant ridicule,<\/p>\n
lisp and ugliness,<\/p>\n
so i changed persona to give me a bulletproof vest,<\/p>\n
from vest to a tank,<\/p>\n
i changed,<\/p>\n
they would fight with pistols i would through at them grenades and missiles,<\/p>\n
i deserved the lack of love and understanding,<\/p>\n
how i pushed away everyone,<\/p>\n
built a 60m wall to keep the inquisitives out,<\/p>\n
built a civilization from my isolation,<\/p>\n
developed concepts to self provided,<\/p>\n
loved those that didn’t love me because breaking my own heart makes it easier to fix,<\/p>\n
you know where all the pieces are,<\/p>\n
splinters and shards,<\/p>\n
i long for understanding<\/p>\n
i long to be loved,<\/p>\n
i long to be myself,<\/p>\n
waiting for the ones that come with bulldozers,<\/p>\n
breakdown the walls of my solitude<\/p>\n
i’m tired of being alone<\/p>\n
-Ropa<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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