{"id":87688,"date":"2021-06-26T11:33:17","date_gmt":"2021-06-26T15:33:17","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/thepoetrymarathon.com\/blog\/?p=87688"},"modified":"2021-06-26T16:53:52","modified_gmt":"2021-06-26T20:53:52","slug":"self-punishment","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/thepoetrymarathon.com\/blog\/2021\/06\/self-punishment\/","title":{"rendered":"Self Punishment"},"content":{"rendered":"<p>I patted the earth<\/p>\n<p>As lovingly as one could with the huge shovel of the excavator.<\/p>\n<p>I shut off the rumbling motor.<\/p>\n<p>My bones rattled on, no longer able to work but not quite able to rest either.<\/p>\n<p>I was finished.<\/p>\n<p>I had now buried everyone I knew,<\/p>\n<p>And some I didn&#8217;t.<\/p>\n<p>No stones marked the graves.<\/p>\n<p>What for? There was no one left to read them.<\/p>\n<p>No tears washed my face.<\/p>\n<p>Crying was a luxury for those who would be comforted.<\/p>\n<p>I was too tired to comfort myself.<\/p>\n<p>I closed the door to the shed where I had parked the excavator<\/p>\n<p>And almost laughed as I observed myself lock it.<\/p>\n<p>But old habits are hard to break,<\/p>\n<p>Like living.<\/p>\n<p>I had warned them about the carriers,<\/p>\n<p>Alarmed as they dropped off one by one.<\/p>\n<p>I never warned them about me.<\/p>\n<p>To say I didn&#8217;t know is no excuse.<\/p>\n<p>I didn&#8217;t want to know.<\/p>\n<p>I never tried to know.<\/p>\n<p>Even when I did know.<\/p>\n<p>Now I have been convicted to live.<\/p>\n<p>Two other carriers help each other join their friends.<\/p>\n<p>I cannot. I must serve my sentence.<\/p>\n<p>I slowly returned to the shed that serve as my lodging.<\/p>\n<p>I went inside<\/p>\n<p>And locked the door.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>I patted the earth As lovingly as one could with the huge shovel of the excavator. I shut off the rumbling motor. My bones rattled on, no longer able to work but not quite able to rest either. I was finished. I had now buried&#8230;<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":3712,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[11],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-87688","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-half-marathon-poem"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/thepoetrymarathon.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/87688","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/thepoetrymarathon.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/thepoetrymarathon.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/thepoetrymarathon.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/3712"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/thepoetrymarathon.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=87688"}],"version-history":[{"count":4,"href":"https:\/\/thepoetrymarathon.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/87688\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":94204,"href":"https:\/\/thepoetrymarathon.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/87688\/revisions\/94204"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/thepoetrymarathon.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=87688"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/thepoetrymarathon.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=87688"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/thepoetrymarathon.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=87688"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}